FUCK MY ARMS FOR NOT HAVING ANY VEINS!
so right now ..
i'm in a mood
one of those pissed off at the world modes. i just want to be left the fuck alone.
i hate when people cant take a fucking joke.
i hate when the person you want more than anything in the world to care about you, dosnt.
i hate when a boy you were in love with .. starts to like your friend.
i hate when your feeling your lowest and something makes you feel even worse
i hate the feeling of life
sometimes, i just wish i could jab needles and pins in my arms in patterns so over welemed it's enlightening.
i just wish i could wake up and not remember a damn thing.
thats why xanax has to be my new best friend.
i'm trying to get on with my life, and do things right.
but some how people who are supposed to help.. arnt.
it's hard for me to do anything.
sorry i'm a fuck up.
i wish i could go back in time and set everything right.
but then agian, i'd still wide up being,
the broken hearted
misserable
lonely girl
who dosnt speak.
while all my friends are off getting the beautiful boys.
whom of which i think are wonderful
in every aspect of life.
i wish i could be that best friend.
that everyone wants to be friends with.
i wish i had the balls enough to be a slut.
but i have to much respect for myself.
and no matter how hard i try,
i never get the guy.
i wish i was that girl that never got used.
or had someone toy with there emotions
constantly.
not just with relationships,
but with family members too.
i wish i wasnt so minipluative.
that way
maybe things
could be set right.
but until then..
i'm just a junkie
with out a cause
except the fact
i cant deal with my own life
so long and fairwell america..
courtney is signing off ...
.. from life
i'm in a mood
one of those pissed off at the world modes. i just want to be left the fuck alone.
i hate when people cant take a fucking joke.
i hate when the person you want more than anything in the world to care about you, dosnt.
i hate when a boy you were in love with .. starts to like your friend.
i hate when your feeling your lowest and something makes you feel even worse
i hate the feeling of life
sometimes, i just wish i could jab needles and pins in my arms in patterns so over welemed it's enlightening.
i just wish i could wake up and not remember a damn thing.
thats why xanax has to be my new best friend.
i'm trying to get on with my life, and do things right.
but some how people who are supposed to help.. arnt.
it's hard for me to do anything.
sorry i'm a fuck up.
i wish i could go back in time and set everything right.
but then agian, i'd still wide up being,
the broken hearted
misserable
lonely girl
who dosnt speak.
while all my friends are off getting the beautiful boys.
whom of which i think are wonderful
in every aspect of life.
i wish i could be that best friend.
that everyone wants to be friends with.
i wish i had the balls enough to be a slut.
but i have to much respect for myself.
and no matter how hard i try,
i never get the guy.
i wish i was that girl that never got used.
or had someone toy with there emotions
constantly.
not just with relationships,
but with family members too.
i wish i wasnt so minipluative.
that way
maybe things
could be set right.
but until then..
i'm just a junkie
with out a cause
except the fact
i cant deal with my own life
so long and fairwell america..
courtney is signing off ...
.. from life