bored
lexi just leaveded my house..i miss sarah a whole lot and i really dont feel like doing my notecards for miss ford im just not in the mood today..you know? i dont know what other homework i have but i have feeling i dont have all my books..i dont know why i really even give a shit about any of this anymoe. i think i've just given up on caring and like things that use to matter to me are just shit. the sky looked really pretty last night, kind of like how it did on new years at sarahs..i remember that night so clearly i remember every time with sarah so clearly like i remember every word we said to each other i remember what times we did things and the dates its like this obbesesive complusive thing.
i dont think i feel like eating any more, that doesnt matter either. i can probably live a week with out eating. i think thats what i'll do eat as less as i can.
lexi is probably gunna come to LP on friday jus to hang out and because she loves the school more than life it self ..so she can meet all my friends n crap. she said she wanted to meet ryan too so i suppose that can be arranged. it'll be fun just spending the day with my lexi whelan<3
speaking of ryan i want him to stay after some day this week just so we can be together i miss him SO much..its been like over a week with out seeing him and im starting to realize..im a shitty girlfriend but i really do care and i really do like maybe even love him, but hey i dont even know what love is i dont think anyone really does. but he's the only person i can trust and talk to now.
i dont think i feel like eating any more, that doesnt matter either. i can probably live a week with out eating. i think thats what i'll do eat as less as i can.
lexi is probably gunna come to LP on friday jus to hang out and because she loves the school more than life it self ..so she can meet all my friends n crap. she said she wanted to meet ryan too so i suppose that can be arranged. it'll be fun just spending the day with my lexi whelan<3
speaking of ryan i want him to stay after some day this week just so we can be together i miss him SO much..its been like over a week with out seeing him and im starting to realize..im a shitty girlfriend but i really do care and i really do like maybe even love him, but hey i dont even know what love is i dont think anyone really does. but he's the only person i can trust and talk to now.