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karma is a bitch. thats what i've desided it is. sorda. i still hate it, its so, i dont know what it is. i keep asking myself why he has to be such a dick, just to do it. yet i've been the same way. time to make amends, to none other then amanda cook. its alot the same, 'cept i never got clingy and weird to him, at least not when hes looking. he has to be such an ass. wtf. WTF?!?!?!! god. i hate that he has this power over me. and i gave it to him. this is what i get for leaving myself open..and hurting others. im sorry.
i wanted to come on here and talk about im freinds with reid again..not truelly again but yea, we are gunna be freinds. i never belived the whole getting emotional from meningless sex, like back before i ever had, but i get it. and the fact that i did it with an ass hole who says, and im not just asumming, "look, here she comes. im not gunna say anything to her." and worse things. he goes out of his fucking way. if im so much more grown up then him, as ryan said, then why am i letting it get to me?
i wanted to come on here and talk about im freinds with reid again..not truelly again but yea, we are gunna be freinds. i never belived the whole getting emotional from meningless sex, like back before i ever had, but i get it. and the fact that i did it with an ass hole who says, and im not just asumming, "look, here she comes. im not gunna say anything to her." and worse things. he goes out of his fucking way. if im so much more grown up then him, as ryan said, then why am i letting it get to me?