wanna call and catch up but no matter what i know you still suck
why can't i trust that people like me and want to be my friend? why can't i just trust that they care about me and just because i cant get a hold of anyone for like a day does not mean that they dont like me? i just assume that. i can't trust anyone to really be my friend. and when i finally did that, finally trusted one person i shouldnt have. this sucks. i totally depend on my friends for strength and support but i can't trust that anyone of them will always be there for me. its nothing they did either, its my fault. its my imagination. i think. unless they are all lying to me. i have good friends. i just have trust issues. im so fucked up.