Blaaahhh
God I miss you more than ever Grandma. :(
This is the first Christmas without you. It sucks so bad.
I thought I'd be ok and not lose it or get emotional, but I was wrong.
It won't be the same without you.
I remember you walking in on christmas day, being so happy to see us after church, you hardly had time to put you bags down to hug us. You looked so foreward to see me and Todd....you'd come over Sunday nights religiously because you knew you could always see us at my parents them. You hated Poker, but would play it anyway, because you could get us to stay that extra hour that way.
What I wouldn't give to hug you again.
I want to hear your voice again. I want to hear you laugh and get frustrated with scabble again.
It's been such a shitty year. Not only are you gone, but it would have been my brother's 21st b-day if he hadn't passed in 1987. What would you have been like? I wish I had a brother.
And now, my papa (grandfather) is sick and dieing....I mean how much can I take????
I'm a blubbering mess....I hide it well, but right now....I'm not ok.
I just can't wait for all of this and this year to be over.
I just feel destroyed and don't know how long I can fake a smile as it gets closer to christmas.
This is the first Christmas without you. It sucks so bad.
I thought I'd be ok and not lose it or get emotional, but I was wrong.
It won't be the same without you.
I remember you walking in on christmas day, being so happy to see us after church, you hardly had time to put you bags down to hug us. You looked so foreward to see me and Todd....you'd come over Sunday nights religiously because you knew you could always see us at my parents them. You hated Poker, but would play it anyway, because you could get us to stay that extra hour that way.
What I wouldn't give to hug you again.
I want to hear your voice again. I want to hear you laugh and get frustrated with scabble again.
It's been such a shitty year. Not only are you gone, but it would have been my brother's 21st b-day if he hadn't passed in 1987. What would you have been like? I wish I had a brother.
And now, my papa (grandfather) is sick and dieing....I mean how much can I take????
I'm a blubbering mess....I hide it well, but right now....I'm not ok.
I just can't wait for all of this and this year to be over.
I just feel destroyed and don't know how long I can fake a smile as it gets closer to christmas.