a poem to get some shit off my chest

[lornadoon]

Farewell

These pills don’t work any more,
My drink, once a comfort,
Is a demon I love to hate,
Fake smiles look good on the outside,
But are starting to bruise my soul
I try to run away,
But the shadows are always there
My reflection in the mirror,
It’s not me,
It’s no one I recognize anymore
Battered and worn,
How do I keep going?
The light that was once in my eyes…
Where did it go?
It was there once,
But it’s faded to gray
Try to push it down, far away
But the shadows always come back
Whispering the truth,
A reality I can’t take
I feel shattered, like porcelain
But can’t fall apart,
Have to fake the smiles and laughs
As I slowly fade away inside
The deep waters are rising,
Can’t hold my breath forever
Try to swim,
But the current is pulling me under
Put the bullet in the barrel and spin,
Click…….
Maybe just one more pill…..
Maybe just one more drink…
Maybe….just….