okay...
i really am sorry about the depressed LJ thing...
anyway.
i try NEVER to cry in front of people, but yesterday it was too much... and i wouldn't tell anyone anything or let anyone comfort me. so grr to people who try to get attention out of that shit.
my plan...
so i'm going to play his game. do what he wants. he=grandpa. no more lj; no more myspace; no sneaking of to Kandra's...and if he takes my computer oh well. i'll just write in a regular journal.
i talked to the summer school counselor yesterday and told him about the promise i made to my lover, and he told me that he'd help by telling my grandpa that in order to avoid a relapse, i need my support group (support group=you guys in MI) so i won't lose that completely either.
as long as i can still have singing lessons too, i'll be alright.
i'll be meltdown girl in the middle of the week every week, but i can handle that. especially when it's right before family guy comes on (family guy = HAHA bipolar positive fit thing.) it gives me the reality check that i have to get home ASAP. 770 more days by the way.
it's going to be okay.
now everyone seems pretty fucked up right now and if there's anything i can do, I will.
hugs and kisses and lots and lots of love + cuddles
--your very own laura balls.
anyway.
i try NEVER to cry in front of people, but yesterday it was too much... and i wouldn't tell anyone anything or let anyone comfort me. so grr to people who try to get attention out of that shit.
my plan...
so i'm going to play his game. do what he wants. he=grandpa. no more lj; no more myspace; no sneaking of to Kandra's...and if he takes my computer oh well. i'll just write in a regular journal.
i talked to the summer school counselor yesterday and told him about the promise i made to my lover, and he told me that he'd help by telling my grandpa that in order to avoid a relapse, i need my support group (support group=you guys in MI) so i won't lose that completely either.
as long as i can still have singing lessons too, i'll be alright.
i'll be meltdown girl in the middle of the week every week, but i can handle that. especially when it's right before family guy comes on (family guy = HAHA bipolar positive fit thing.) it gives me the reality check that i have to get home ASAP. 770 more days by the way.
it's going to be okay.
now everyone seems pretty fucked up right now and if there's anything i can do, I will.
hugs and kisses and lots and lots of love + cuddles
--your very own laura balls.