Decisions
Consider this, there is no such thing as a non - life altering decision. All decisions, no matter how small, ultimately modify a persons existance in ways which said person cannot envision. We all try to way the different possibilities and wonder what might happen if we do X though variable Y could influence it in the case of N or what have you. In any case, we are all forever modifying our fates through those opportunities we choose and equally by those we let slip by. This subject has been waying heavily on my mind recently. I am currently trying to make a decision, a major one. One of those socially referred to as actually "life altering" decisions. This is an accurate phrase as based on my decision my life will be visibly altered in multiple, definable ways. So here I sit pondering, for there truly is no better word for it, on how I wish to proceed. The thing about decisions is that if YOU are deciding something, you are being in herently egotistical and selfish. As YOU are taking control of this idea and dictating a result that may ultimately affect many people around you. Sometimes you have to be willing to sacrifice possibility for actuality. I have never been the type to settle for good enough when great was possible. A person who settles makes the decision that a mediocre life is all the happiness they are willing to accept. I prefer to live in a world of laughter and tears. I will accept misery as a penalty for striving for happiness. I will not have just misery though, it will be great misery, misery such as can be a justifiable talion to the passionate bliss I could achieve as its alternate. Chance exists to give meaning to our lives. In order to accomplish greatness there exists only one thing, one wall, one line in the sand that must be crossed; and that is to decide.