new look...::shrugs::

[loosing_control]

hello all. i just felt like updating this thing for once. this weeks been weird. this weekend was one of the best in a really long time. ryan was home and that just made everything so much better. i got to spend a lot of time with him. more than i thought i would because he had a lot to do. we had a lot of fun though. i sleptover his house sunday (unplanned). it was amazing. we had a lot of firsts that night. we held hands for the first time, kissed for the first time, got close for the first time, he touched my feet (HAHA). yea i dunno it was a great weekend. i loved it. i miss him so much already. he leaves for eygpt in now 2 days. its gonna suck sooo bad. im so used to being able to talk to him at least once a day and now i wont be able to talk to him till he comes back probly. he said hes gonna try to call me whenever he can but im not gonna wait around for it because i know he wont always be able to. i dunno... i just miss him. like sometimes i feel like nobody really understands or knows how it feels but than i just stop myself in my thoughts because that sounds really selfish and i dont wanna be like that. soooo im taking it a day at a time and trying not to think like that. he'll hopefully be home in mid october after he gets back from egypt so i will hopefully be seeing him again then. i really hope so. but if not, i understand. i love him soooo much. ... but anywhooo on to a different note .. i start school on wednesday. went to orientation with the girls on tuesday. it was pretty boring but im glad we went. i at least know where im going now and im not as nervous. im just nervous about buying books, and the papers/homework LoL thats all gonna suck. but whatever .. one day at a timeee LoL .. well im off now ... ill update another time. seeyas! :)
*good luck to everyone thats going away ! keep in touch if you can!*