why cant he be here when i need him!?
i was going to write an entry and then i just realized i dont know what to write about. Ive been very spacey, blank and depressed lately. I dont really have anything to be depressed about i dont think but i part of me thinks its all emotionally and mentally. Im not sure i dont really care anymore. So i really need to talk to my one bestfriend big time. Ive been needing to talk to him since about Monday of last week or so and hes not been around to talk to. Ill call and hes with his girlfriend, or on the phone with her or she calls on the other line and lets me go (mind u we havent even been on the phone for at least 5 minutes when she does call)..i dont know i just really need him right now and hes not here. Im not mad about him and his girlfriend or anything. Im just mad that he always tells me hell always be there for me whenever and now when i really do need him hes not anywhere to be found. ughh i dont know im gonna go try and get a hold of him again. Ill update tomorrow maybe! good night all! <3Jamie