honestly if it don't hurt than you ain't loving hard
It's crazy how fast a year can go by and so much can change. To this day I'm still in shock that I've finally become the person God has wanted me to be. Married, family and happy with life in general, I can't praise enough to him for what he has blessed me.
But the biggest blessing I cannot get over, is my mini me. He's my pride and joy and he brings so much more love into my life that it can ever be filled with. In 10 days, I will be celebrating the blessing of him being with us for a year. Healthy and such a blessing of joy to everyone. The 22nd cannot come any sooner because seeing him smile and laugh on that day will just fill my heart to know he's having a good day just to be around those he love. They say the 1st birthday is always a bang because the child has manage to survive all the crazy baby years of learning and growing and not choking. I think we are going out with a bang to start the new birth year with him. Yo Gabba Gabba party for the little man. I've gone above and beyond to create an invitation that is unique and creative. For my love I'd do anything for.
Aside from my little man's birthday coming up. I've been in the process of trying to work for the city as a cop or a correctional officer. I've taken the test, got back into shape and trying to maintain the healthy diet I use to have prior to being happy and not caring what i look like. With the struggle of getting back into shape for work, I've been challenge to let go of my past or move on. It's been haunting me again. I cannot seem to get a particular someone off my mind these past couple weeks. I think its the temptation of falling back to old habits that the dark is playing with me. Why should I be sad, one asked me, specially when i do have everything a person can ask for. So I'm dealing with a lot even though I'm completely happy with life. This obstacle has been harassing me for a long time. But I'm doing everything to get over this, and I'm hoping the lord can help me through this.
Life has many blessings, but in order to see that we have to let go of the control we have on our life. Once we let go and fall into his grace, he will do everything for us. I've learned that the hard way. And I must say it stands true. If you just talk to him -- not just pray -- he will guide you no matter the struggle. But do not just go to him for your troubles but talk to him about how please and happy you are as well. If it was for my better half I would still be fighting against believing. Now he's blessed me with a good thing, as Trip would say.
In another time I may write again or may not, because I do not know who still keeps in touch with this. Even if nobody read this, it's me writing out my blessings in life. Maybe someone will read this and may be they won't but my words are here for a while until i decide to erase this chapter and move on to another. I end this message here and leave you with a song that is on repeat on my mind. It's a good one, so I hope you enjoy.
But the biggest blessing I cannot get over, is my mini me. He's my pride and joy and he brings so much more love into my life that it can ever be filled with. In 10 days, I will be celebrating the blessing of him being with us for a year. Healthy and such a blessing of joy to everyone. The 22nd cannot come any sooner because seeing him smile and laugh on that day will just fill my heart to know he's having a good day just to be around those he love. They say the 1st birthday is always a bang because the child has manage to survive all the crazy baby years of learning and growing and not choking. I think we are going out with a bang to start the new birth year with him. Yo Gabba Gabba party for the little man. I've gone above and beyond to create an invitation that is unique and creative. For my love I'd do anything for.
Aside from my little man's birthday coming up. I've been in the process of trying to work for the city as a cop or a correctional officer. I've taken the test, got back into shape and trying to maintain the healthy diet I use to have prior to being happy and not caring what i look like. With the struggle of getting back into shape for work, I've been challenge to let go of my past or move on. It's been haunting me again. I cannot seem to get a particular someone off my mind these past couple weeks. I think its the temptation of falling back to old habits that the dark is playing with me. Why should I be sad, one asked me, specially when i do have everything a person can ask for. So I'm dealing with a lot even though I'm completely happy with life. This obstacle has been harassing me for a long time. But I'm doing everything to get over this, and I'm hoping the lord can help me through this.
Life has many blessings, but in order to see that we have to let go of the control we have on our life. Once we let go and fall into his grace, he will do everything for us. I've learned that the hard way. And I must say it stands true. If you just talk to him -- not just pray -- he will guide you no matter the struggle. But do not just go to him for your troubles but talk to him about how please and happy you are as well. If it was for my better half I would still be fighting against believing. Now he's blessed me with a good thing, as Trip would say.
In another time I may write again or may not, because I do not know who still keeps in touch with this. Even if nobody read this, it's me writing out my blessings in life. Maybe someone will read this and may be they won't but my words are here for a while until i decide to erase this chapter and move on to another. I end this message here and leave you with a song that is on repeat on my mind. It's a good one, so I hope you enjoy.
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