Oy.
Today was rather trying. Yesterday I worked in Life Science, which was fun (I especially enjoyed it when the Australian man came in with his song -- mmm, accent), but I had no idea when I'd be working next, because Sandy, my boss, wasn't in. So I woke up today with the intention of calling Sandy and working out a schedule with her, but at about 12:30 Katie called, asking if I knew I was supposed to be working today.
O_O
Obviously I hadn't, and she said I was supposed to be in the Turbine Hall until 7 PM, and she asked if I could come down. I said yes, of course, because I didn't want to make things worse, but ugh, it was awful. After we hung up I burst into tears because I'd been afraid of that happening, but I honestly didn't know what was going on, and didn't know where I could find a schedule. I remembered Sandy vaguely saying something about me going to the Turbine Hall for training, but she hadn't said anything since and I hadn't written it down so I didn't think I was actually doing it.
Anyway, then I called Mom to tell her to pick me up at 7, and burst into tears all over again. I HATE THAT!!! I can be perfectly calm and rational by myself, but the instant I talk to someone it just opens it all up again and I am utterly helpless to stop it. I HATE IT. Words can't express how much I hate that I can't control my own emotions and my own body when I need to. I am definitely all about crying when I need to, but that doesn't change the fact that I will NEVER, EVER be okay with crying in front of people, and that I LOATHE doing so. I was so angry at myself for that, because I just couldn't stop crying even though I knew it wasn't THAT bad, and I was still pretty new so I wasn't to know, and they probably wouldn't reprimand me much -- I knew all of that and yet I still couldn't make myself stop. That kind of thing just PISSES. ME. OFF.
So I got on the bus and went down to OMSI. The Turbine Hall is that big hall full of mechanical things. It turns out that I would be working in there and also the Physics Lab. The Physics Lab is actually pretty cool, especially since I know squat about physics, so it was all kinda new to me. Maddie showed me around and told me how to set up and close and everything, and then I wandered around for a while and just checked things out. After a while she got the musical glasses out -- wineglasses of different sizes, each with a specific note. I learned how to play on those and it was actually really fun. I memorized the Star Wars theme even. *g* C, C, G F E D, C G F E D, C G F E F D. Good times.
The other stupid thing that happened was that when it was time to close up, I locked the office door behind me -- but I still had a radio in my pocket, which went back in the office. >_< So I left a note about where it was on the door, and hid the radio in the staff area next to some other electronics. Well, at least I didn't take it home with me, I guess...
So I got my schedule. I'm supposed to be working Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, but Friday is my driving test and Saturday an eye exam, which I sorely need. I think I can reschedule the eye test but I'm going to have to see if I can come in late on Friday, because I need to give myself a) time for the test itself, and b) time to either celebrate or cry my guts out, before going to work. *gulp*
Pffft. Think I'll go think about something else now.
O_O
Obviously I hadn't, and she said I was supposed to be in the Turbine Hall until 7 PM, and she asked if I could come down. I said yes, of course, because I didn't want to make things worse, but ugh, it was awful. After we hung up I burst into tears because I'd been afraid of that happening, but I honestly didn't know what was going on, and didn't know where I could find a schedule. I remembered Sandy vaguely saying something about me going to the Turbine Hall for training, but she hadn't said anything since and I hadn't written it down so I didn't think I was actually doing it.
Anyway, then I called Mom to tell her to pick me up at 7, and burst into tears all over again. I HATE THAT!!! I can be perfectly calm and rational by myself, but the instant I talk to someone it just opens it all up again and I am utterly helpless to stop it. I HATE IT. Words can't express how much I hate that I can't control my own emotions and my own body when I need to. I am definitely all about crying when I need to, but that doesn't change the fact that I will NEVER, EVER be okay with crying in front of people, and that I LOATHE doing so. I was so angry at myself for that, because I just couldn't stop crying even though I knew it wasn't THAT bad, and I was still pretty new so I wasn't to know, and they probably wouldn't reprimand me much -- I knew all of that and yet I still couldn't make myself stop. That kind of thing just PISSES. ME. OFF.
So I got on the bus and went down to OMSI. The Turbine Hall is that big hall full of mechanical things. It turns out that I would be working in there and also the Physics Lab. The Physics Lab is actually pretty cool, especially since I know squat about physics, so it was all kinda new to me. Maddie showed me around and told me how to set up and close and everything, and then I wandered around for a while and just checked things out. After a while she got the musical glasses out -- wineglasses of different sizes, each with a specific note. I learned how to play on those and it was actually really fun. I memorized the Star Wars theme even. *g* C, C, G F E D, C G F E D, C G F E F D. Good times.
The other stupid thing that happened was that when it was time to close up, I locked the office door behind me -- but I still had a radio in my pocket, which went back in the office. >_< So I left a note about where it was on the door, and hid the radio in the staff area next to some other electronics. Well, at least I didn't take it home with me, I guess...
So I got my schedule. I'm supposed to be working Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, but Friday is my driving test and Saturday an eye exam, which I sorely need. I think I can reschedule the eye test but I'm going to have to see if I can come in late on Friday, because I need to give myself a) time for the test itself, and b) time to either celebrate or cry my guts out, before going to work. *gulp*
Pffft. Think I'll go think about something else now.