Enough is enough, you'd be so better off.......

[loompa_kid]

Well well well I think that i got a lot of things off of my shoulders. I feel better for just admitting that i was changing for the worst and now im gonna try to fix that problem. Mari doesnt deserve the shit i put her through and it makes me feel like i shud just die for hurting her. I dont deserve to even think of a gorgeous girl that is oh so amazing like her. She has always been in my heart and i was stupid to let her get out of reach. Sometimes knowing that i hurt her just makes me want to leave forever and never come back. Why was i so stupid to let her get out of reach in the first place? I remember i first ever heard from mari was when she called me for a friend and hung up on me right when i said hi. Supposibly my voice is sexy but i still dont see it to this day. But everything she thought about me i never saw and i never got. She basically made me feel like a damn king and i treated her like shit and even when i had feelings for her i still pushed her away. I was such an idiot and i dont know why i did. Then new years came along and i made a new years resolution to be a better person and go balls to the wall with anyone i meet and actually keep the confidence that mari gave me. It was so ironic it became ridiculously funny. I went to the completely opposite direction and i lost my best friend and i lost mari. She was the only one that cared but was too far away to do anything which kills me. She is the one i love cuz out of all the people that were there she was the only one there who cared and was hurt from me changing. I had fun doing what i was doing but it caught up to me and it wasnt worth hurting mari. I love her.

Guess ill call or see u around..........

Kozma