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so i have a bit of a problem. im still in love with one guy and i have strong feelings for another but im tired of the games im clearly not cut out for it. whats the point in it really ya sure i guess it can be entertaining to fuck with peoples feelings but whatever happened to coming out and saying exactly how you feel ( i did that already) and actually meaning what you say ( and i do) i recently poured my heart out to the guy im still in love with and after the last week or so ive come to the conclusion that that night meant nothing to him and he clearly doesnt feel the same way. not like i havent lost him before i guess i just got that taste of what could be and it hurts ten times worse.the worst part is he could call me right now and say kristin i want to be with you and id be with him at the drop of a hat i guess he just chooses not to see that. the guy i have strong feelings for has decided to say one thing and act a completely different way. fyi im not mentioning names because i know that some of you dont necessary like who im talking about and well if you really know me you know who im talking about anyways. anyways one minute he needs to be alone to figure out what he wants in life than the next he wants to move out to st.augustine to be closer to me. im really just tired of getting my hopes up and always being let down. expect nothing and you will never be disappointed.
and not that you care to hear more but im over st.augustine. it isnt where i want to be at all. jacksonville is where i belong. i fuckin miss my best friend better known as my other half. the drama is getting really lame and the more i think about it shes the only one who has always been there and it sucks that im out here and we barely talk or hang. i feel like im losing her friendship and theres nothing i can really do about it. im over school im over this town im over it all!
i really dont expect any of you to care or to even read this far i just needed to get it out theres much more and i dont have the patience for it
goodnight!