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Sorry I haven't updated in a while....This past week has been really hard for me to deal with and if I had been writing in here, you all would have gotten sick of hearing me complain. But I've finally made a decision. I'm not going to school....well at least not now. Hopefully I'll be able to go in January for second semester. I don't know when surgery is gonna be....But I have an appointment with the surgeon on friday so I guess we'll find out soon. I still have to see my regular GI doctor for a while....He's gotta run a bunch of (not so pleasant) tests again before I can go in for surgery. yay, how lucky am i? I'm really really scared about this so if anyone has ever had some sort of operation, please tell me....I have like a million questions.
I'm not even really scared of the actual procedure anymore...I've read up on it and talked to my doctor. And ya it's a big surgery and things can go wrong but....there's nothing we can do about that. I'm just scared about the little things that I didn't even really think about till I was lying in bed last night. I hate hospitals...I'm always scared somethings gonna go wrong and no one's gonna be there when it does. I'm petrified of having a feeding tube...I see people with them on TV and it makes me squirm. I don't want anything going up my nose! ouch! I've been told it's gonna be pretty uncomfortable...grrrreat. I hate the fact that my mom is a nurse so when she's at the hospital with me, she thinks she knows everything. i mean, i'm sure she does but....she's not my nurse. i get annoyed when she's like "ooooo, let me do that! I'm a nurse too" ummmm, no mom, i don't want you putting my IV in...maybe next time, but thanks anyways!
The other thing that really really sucks is that I'm gonna be so far away from home. Everyone's gonna be too far away to come visit. And I feel selfish because I want my friends to be there to keep me company, but I know they can't do that. :-( They have class and sports and work....eh, I'll live. They can come visit when I get home. :-) Well that's about all for now....I'll keep you all posted....All like 5 people that read this. HeHe. Oh well. Bye