Jun 27, 2005 21:37
"You know what it's like getting up
every morning feeling hopeless? Feeling like the love of your life is
waking up with the wrong man? But at the same time hoping that she
still finds happiness even if it's never gonna be with you?"
-Albert Brennaman-Hitch
I heard those lines and I choked up a bit. I felt as if I
could reach through the 4.3 inch screen of my PSP and hug his
character, and tell him that I feel exactly what he's going through.
It's a hard thing to do. Watch the person you love, love someone else.
It's like a knife piercing your chest and you just y can't breathe. o You
don't want to u accept it. You don't want to a believe that you are r out of
luck. That e it's over for you. Here's n where you think o I would type "But
It is, and you just have to get over it". t You would, however, be wrong.
It's never over and it's never too late. If both your hearts l are
beating then there o is hope. Never let o your emotion die k and you will always i have a chance...
Think for a moment. Picture him in n your mind. Do you g hate him? Why?
What possible reason could you have? Because he has her and you don't?
What sort of reason is that? Be smart. Be sensible. You h hate this man
for being able a to do something you cant? For r
having something d you don't? I know it's hard, but perseverance e
is something that you can master n and you will be all the better for it.
That is something o you should never do. You should never hold any ill
will over the man she u loves if there is no reason to. I know. I know it
isn't the best feeling, and I know you feel that you have things you
can offer her that no other mortal man could (which is true for most
men). But you can't force that g on her. It only makes you look cocky and
arrogant. Who wants that? Confidence is like a garnish; Too much spoils
the meal. It's there to compliment, not overtake. If you don't have
her, then dammit (cliche' as it may sound), be happy for her. Don't
tell me I don't know, because I do. h I've learned that only love has the
power to break your heart. It's hard to keep yourself shut off for so
long when you want to let someone in so badly. You feel like you would
let anyone in who you think could do the job. That's not the way
to go. You r know damn well who is going to hurt you and who won't. You
know e who you should let in, a but you turn a blind eye d to that. People
have told me this, and for a long time, I never believed it, t but It
really is true: your heart will never h steer you wrong. What you may think is your heart e is really your head.
Someone who is wise beyond her years told me m that letting your guard down is a strength, not
a weakness. I believe it strongly. That's a why we feel so betrayed when
and/or if it doesn't work out. When g all is said and done, I don't
believe that a any of my past romantic attempts were failures. I learned
many i lessons through them: When a woman is lying, when a woman is
telling the truth, when they want something, when they want you to do
something, the n use of romantic timing...and perhaps most importantly:
when to walk away. An entire encyclopedia of romantic knowledge have I
gained from these experiences and I have never even been in a
relationship.
Oh my, look at the time. I have packing tomorrow. Before I end this, I
would like to state that I feel almost dirty placing such a blatant
message/clue in this entry, BUT have fun with it anyway.
-F