From lost friends to "all things in moderation"
It is really possible to go from feeling very intensely for someone to feeling completely indifferent toward him? It's very weird to think about those people whom you cared for deeply in the past, but lost contact with for one reason or another. Ex-boyfriends, friends who proved to be otherwise, friends you just lost touch with over the years. It's weirdest when the friendship/relationship was extremely intense, and extremely short-lived. It's hard to deny that those feelings existed, yet it's hard to admit that they impacted your life in the short time they were alive. Is it really possible to get rid of them completely? Is it really possible to stop thinking about these people entirely? If you do manage to stop thinking about them, is it possible that they really ever meant to you what you thought they meant to you? Can you really go from knowing someone intimately to feeling like he's a total stranger? Sometimes I wonder how those people I lost contact with would feel if they stumbled across my obituary while they were reading the paper. It's sad to think of them pointing it out to someone nearby, saying "hmm, I used to know that girl," then moving on with their lives. Maybe ancient writers had it right (right...write...ha..ha): with intense pleasure comes intense pain, so a moderate existence is best. But there's no denying that that intensity really feels like living, whether it is pleasure or pain.
In other news, I'm very attracted to Beck.
In other news, I'm very attracted to Beck.