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So here I am.. hi!.
Lately I've been happy with myself, not at work, but thats work. But things seem to be going well moving in with my dad seems to be a good thing, even though he's like my mom talking about the money and my mom, the opposite side of the book I guess. whatever I guess I can deal with him too. I"m really excited though because I've been thinking about when I move out on my own how much stuff I'll actually have just because I have two house, I guess when I was younger and my soccer team was trying telling me I should of listened.. but I guess I was too hurt back then.
Umm I guess the only place where i'm not all that happy is the amount of Mcdonalds that I eat, and the non-amount of excersice, I want to, and I know I should but it's like the minister said at the Saturday night praise at Springs, you want to but you don't feel it in your heart, I really have to start feeling things in my heart so my life start being easier and I love things more than masking my hate with love. I don't know anymore, I feel like things are funner and all that, but still I stay introverted and think about everyone around me, but the funny thing is when I'm doing that I'm more happy when it works, but when I'm not happy I know where to stop and also make me happy, because I am important.
I went out last night with Travis and his best friend and older brother it was awesome me and his brother were actually not hating each other it was awesome, and Travis seem to be having an awesome time which makes me happy because I know what birthdays mean to him:) That guy means so much to me and makes me feel so special, and important, and I'm even happier that he's in my life making me the person I am right now!!
Well this week comming up doesn't seem like it's going to be a happy one because it will be scary, closing a resturant all by myself!!.. AHH! that's going to be hard and difficult, I don't know if I want to, I don't know if I can, if I can handle it and all I want is assurance that I can do it, but I'm too scared to tell my Head and 1st assistant managers how I feel because I like my position but I guess I'm just not into my own two feet when it comes to it. I've done a Welfair Friday before and it was hard, and difficult so I know for a fact that I have to get ready for that, and add people on because people WILL no show and I will get screwed over but if I prepare I guess it might be alright:).. I'M STILL SCARED!!!:)..
but anyways I should probably get heading to bed so i'll talk to myself later, Love you all!
Lately I've been happy with myself, not at work, but thats work. But things seem to be going well moving in with my dad seems to be a good thing, even though he's like my mom talking about the money and my mom, the opposite side of the book I guess. whatever I guess I can deal with him too. I"m really excited though because I've been thinking about when I move out on my own how much stuff I'll actually have just because I have two house, I guess when I was younger and my soccer team was trying telling me I should of listened.. but I guess I was too hurt back then.
Umm I guess the only place where i'm not all that happy is the amount of Mcdonalds that I eat, and the non-amount of excersice, I want to, and I know I should but it's like the minister said at the Saturday night praise at Springs, you want to but you don't feel it in your heart, I really have to start feeling things in my heart so my life start being easier and I love things more than masking my hate with love. I don't know anymore, I feel like things are funner and all that, but still I stay introverted and think about everyone around me, but the funny thing is when I'm doing that I'm more happy when it works, but when I'm not happy I know where to stop and also make me happy, because I am important.
I went out last night with Travis and his best friend and older brother it was awesome me and his brother were actually not hating each other it was awesome, and Travis seem to be having an awesome time which makes me happy because I know what birthdays mean to him:) That guy means so much to me and makes me feel so special, and important, and I'm even happier that he's in my life making me the person I am right now!!
Well this week comming up doesn't seem like it's going to be a happy one because it will be scary, closing a resturant all by myself!!.. AHH! that's going to be hard and difficult, I don't know if I want to, I don't know if I can, if I can handle it and all I want is assurance that I can do it, but I'm too scared to tell my Head and 1st assistant managers how I feel because I like my position but I guess I'm just not into my own two feet when it comes to it. I've done a Welfair Friday before and it was hard, and difficult so I know for a fact that I have to get ready for that, and add people on because people WILL no show and I will get screwed over but if I prepare I guess it might be alright:).. I'M STILL SCARED!!!:)..
but anyways I should probably get heading to bed so i'll talk to myself later, Love you all!