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Oh, god! Anxiety anxiety anxiety, stress stress stress!!!
I feel like I've lost precious, precious time. So many people I know are doing acting things this summer. So many people are interning, whatever, I don't know. All I want to do is improve. I feel as though I am losing something - some valuable opportunity - by not doing that. now.
I feel like I'm involved in a race. A race to succeed, a race to be happy, a race to become the best most fucking famous and amazingly moving, talented touching actress ever to walk the stage in the human earth.
Fuck. I AM LOSING VALUABLE TIME! I AM NOT GOING TO WIN THE RACE!
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Stress and anguish.
All I want to do is be perfect! Is that so much to ask???
I know that this is ridiculous. But when I ask myself why I am so stressed out when I read about my friends and their various acting projects, this is the answer I find for myself. I'm not claiming that it's logical or possible. I don't really think it's even sane.
I feel like I've lost precious, precious time. So many people I know are doing acting things this summer. So many people are interning, whatever, I don't know. All I want to do is improve. I feel as though I am losing something - some valuable opportunity - by not doing that. now.
I feel like I'm involved in a race. A race to succeed, a race to be happy, a race to become the best most fucking famous and amazingly moving, talented touching actress ever to walk the stage in the human earth.
Fuck. I AM LOSING VALUABLE TIME! I AM NOT GOING TO WIN THE RACE!
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Stress and anguish.
All I want to do is be perfect! Is that so much to ask???
I know that this is ridiculous. But when I ask myself why I am so stressed out when I read about my friends and their various acting projects, this is the answer I find for myself. I'm not claiming that it's logical or possible. I don't really think it's even sane.