I should have known better
So after that little fight I had with Maddie yesterday Chloe calls me using her phone and naturally I don't answer it, because... lets face the last thing I wanted to do was talk to MAddie. But me being me, I waited and checked the voicemail left because I always do. So this voicemail says to leave a message on her LJ. And I do. Here's the funny part, I leave this message explaining myself and why I am very pissed and she instantly deletes it, I'm doubting she even read it, blocks me from commenting anymore, and then removes me from her friends list on LJ.
Now I'm not one to hold a grudge, in fact I usually sleep thim off, but waking up this morning, I find myselfstill wanting to hang maddie from the rafters by her innards Not chloe, I can't stay angry at her at least not to that deapth. After all she did just completely obliterate everything that was originaly our friendship, because herfiance decided to leave a comment that has a meaning that everyone knows that was WAY off base, and meaning something different without explaination, to someone who is already distraut. Then having the nerve to call me emo when after a week and a half on vacation, she managed in 2 posts a day to have at least one bad thing to complain about in each one.
The fact of the matter is I admit I blew up pretty bad, but I am not sorry for what I said. While amist my maddening rants I atleast explained my Point of veiw. Whereas all I got in return were angry jealous rants telling me to keep my hands off her woman, like I had been sleeping with Chloe on the side. I had tried for nearly a month to be good friends with Maddie, leaving encouraging comments on her LJ trying to be comforting, even trying to be friendly and talk with her on the phone. What did I get? No response to my comments on LJ, Quickly getting rid of the phone or hanging up when we were talking. And one comment not properly explained (as I still don't see what she was meaning by it) that caused a big fuss.
In the end, am I sorry I over reacted? Yes. Am I sorry for what I said? No. I do retract those hope you die things... that was anger. Am I sorry 2 friendships are ending? Yes. Am I going to take this out on them the next time I see them? Hell no... Probably buy 'em pizza again.
In the end my only point is.
"She was never yours to lose." Sounds like a jealous comment that I blew WAy out of proportion. To me, she is someone I can lose. She was a good friend and a wonderful conversationalist. However, even among this, I am sorry that we couldn't be friends. But I will tell your right now. You have already fallen under my wing. To lose that protective cover takes more than this. If you need help, Maddie this means you, Chloe already knows, Call me. I still have your numbers in my Phone I'll know its you. I will be there, Whether we can talk or not. I'm still here, and I love you both.
Matt.
Now I'm not one to hold a grudge, in fact I usually sleep thim off, but waking up this morning, I find myselfstill wanting to hang maddie from the rafters by her innards Not chloe, I can't stay angry at her at least not to that deapth. After all she did just completely obliterate everything that was originaly our friendship, because herfiance decided to leave a comment that has a meaning that everyone knows that was WAY off base, and meaning something different without explaination, to someone who is already distraut. Then having the nerve to call me emo when after a week and a half on vacation, she managed in 2 posts a day to have at least one bad thing to complain about in each one.
The fact of the matter is I admit I blew up pretty bad, but I am not sorry for what I said. While amist my maddening rants I atleast explained my Point of veiw. Whereas all I got in return were angry jealous rants telling me to keep my hands off her woman, like I had been sleeping with Chloe on the side. I had tried for nearly a month to be good friends with Maddie, leaving encouraging comments on her LJ trying to be comforting, even trying to be friendly and talk with her on the phone. What did I get? No response to my comments on LJ, Quickly getting rid of the phone or hanging up when we were talking. And one comment not properly explained (as I still don't see what she was meaning by it) that caused a big fuss.
In the end, am I sorry I over reacted? Yes. Am I sorry for what I said? No. I do retract those hope you die things... that was anger. Am I sorry 2 friendships are ending? Yes. Am I going to take this out on them the next time I see them? Hell no... Probably buy 'em pizza again.
In the end my only point is.
"She was never yours to lose." Sounds like a jealous comment that I blew WAy out of proportion. To me, she is someone I can lose. She was a good friend and a wonderful conversationalist. However, even among this, I am sorry that we couldn't be friends. But I will tell your right now. You have already fallen under my wing. To lose that protective cover takes more than this. If you need help, Maddie this means you, Chloe already knows, Call me. I still have your numbers in my Phone I'll know its you. I will be there, Whether we can talk or not. I'm still here, and I love you both.
Matt.