Levels
I was going to Twitter this, but the thought is just too complex to jam into 140 chars.
I always keep coming back to a very simple, basic fact about myself in my life: on a base level, I don't connect with people. I never really have, and I never will. We just don't "click", there is no "chemistry" and we flat-out don't relate.
Anything beyond a simple friendship is faked. If this is news, sorry to break it, but it's true. I've never felt connected to family members, and I've just reacted how I was expected to (or emulated such to the best of my ability).
Since I reached the age of reason, I have always felt alone. There have been brief moments when I thought that might not be the case, or when I have felt some flash of meaningful connection to someone else, but it's always wishful thinking. It's just not in my nature to interact with other people in that way.
Perhaps I'm just a cold, callous bastard. Perhaps I was born into the wrong species, and just can't relate to those that I can't seem to regard as peers on a fundamental level. I don't know why, it just IS,
The saying is "no man is an island". Respectfully, I disagree... and offer myself as proof.
I always keep coming back to a very simple, basic fact about myself in my life: on a base level, I don't connect with people. I never really have, and I never will. We just don't "click", there is no "chemistry" and we flat-out don't relate.
Anything beyond a simple friendship is faked. If this is news, sorry to break it, but it's true. I've never felt connected to family members, and I've just reacted how I was expected to (or emulated such to the best of my ability).
Since I reached the age of reason, I have always felt alone. There have been brief moments when I thought that might not be the case, or when I have felt some flash of meaningful connection to someone else, but it's always wishful thinking. It's just not in my nature to interact with other people in that way.
Perhaps I'm just a cold, callous bastard. Perhaps I was born into the wrong species, and just can't relate to those that I can't seem to regard as peers on a fundamental level. I don't know why, it just IS,
The saying is "no man is an island". Respectfully, I disagree... and offer myself as proof.