I don't think my relationship is gonna last
I like Hayley, don't get me wrong but there are too many issues. 1. She's so scared of change/facing things that she refuses to move forward.
She's got a felony on her record because of something our friend, shooter, did. He left Ridaline(sp) in her car and got pulled over. Having prescription drugs without a prescription is a felony>_< Well I've been telling her that she should look into getting that removed from her record but she's so scared of what might happen that she doesn't want to move forward with it. Yet she complains about her job and how she wants to change her life but doesn't do anything about it.
It bothers me to hear her complain about how she wants a new job or go back to school but this felony on her record "won't let her". She doesn't even look into it and she doesn't even try to apply at another job because of the fact that "they're gonna see the felony on her record, so what's the point?"
It bothers me alot because YOU NEVER TRY, YOU'LL NEVER KNOW..
Then she's also very co-dependant. I don't mind making other people happy but when they rely on me 100%(or close to it), it bothers me alot. I don't want to be the 1 source of happiness. I mean, that's alot of responsibility and stress. I feel like being place in a HIGH mountain and the slightlest move will make me fall from grace.
Then she sulks. She'll sit in her room bored and complain about how she doesn't have anything to do but then when I tell her "why don't you watch something on netflix or play the xbox", her response is that "she doesn't want to waste away her day..." well sitting in your room and sulking isn't exactly any better.
I've already talked to her about this and I want to try to work this out but part of me already feels like "i'm checking out".
It doesn't help that I've been having dreams about my ex's. Been dreaming of Michelle and Liz.>_< Great. Nothing against them but that makes it awkward to wake up to that.
Speaking of michelle. We've been talking again. I'm actually really glad that we're on speaking terms again and I'm glad that life seems to be going better for her. She's working fulltime. She's really into the roller derby stuff. It is a lil awkward that her and Liz are becoming friends but I'm glad that they're friends. Everyone needs more friends, right?
She's got a felony on her record because of something our friend, shooter, did. He left Ridaline(sp) in her car and got pulled over. Having prescription drugs without a prescription is a felony>_< Well I've been telling her that she should look into getting that removed from her record but she's so scared of what might happen that she doesn't want to move forward with it. Yet she complains about her job and how she wants to change her life but doesn't do anything about it.
It bothers me to hear her complain about how she wants a new job or go back to school but this felony on her record "won't let her". She doesn't even look into it and she doesn't even try to apply at another job because of the fact that "they're gonna see the felony on her record, so what's the point?"
It bothers me alot because YOU NEVER TRY, YOU'LL NEVER KNOW..
Then she's also very co-dependant. I don't mind making other people happy but when they rely on me 100%(or close to it), it bothers me alot. I don't want to be the 1 source of happiness. I mean, that's alot of responsibility and stress. I feel like being place in a HIGH mountain and the slightlest move will make me fall from grace.
Then she sulks. She'll sit in her room bored and complain about how she doesn't have anything to do but then when I tell her "why don't you watch something on netflix or play the xbox", her response is that "she doesn't want to waste away her day..." well sitting in your room and sulking isn't exactly any better.
I've already talked to her about this and I want to try to work this out but part of me already feels like "i'm checking out".
It doesn't help that I've been having dreams about my ex's. Been dreaming of Michelle and Liz.>_< Great. Nothing against them but that makes it awkward to wake up to that.
Speaking of michelle. We've been talking again. I'm actually really glad that we're on speaking terms again and I'm glad that life seems to be going better for her. She's working fulltime. She's really into the roller derby stuff. It is a lil awkward that her and Liz are becoming friends but I'm glad that they're friends. Everyone needs more friends, right?