"Does anyone remember laughter?"
inhhume moved on from the first round of the emergenzia festival to a backbooth full of applauding people. it was insanity i tell you.
as for me.
non-sobriety has taught me that for the moments of the day that i am actually sober i am infact searching fiendishly for some sort of excuse to not think of anything that could lead me down the road of recounting my summer.
its so very difficult to be in such a misplaced area of my life.
the standard yearly evolution has gone in a very strange direction.
ive grown up into an adult, at least as far as attitude and expression, as well as a death to enthusiasm.
while the thoughts of the entire universe that she held within her eyes still haunt me, and those plans we made all fell through with a very graceful silence around them, ive found that im blocking and forgetting everything about those days, as you have obviously done. but that is always the way of things.
currently something else confuses me.
and it will always.
if you understand where i am coming from.
and you say you want to know what it would be like to spend more time together.
then why do we never follow through with those yeanring thoughts.
whynot?
i wish i knew it to be easier, and i wish to know it be a much happier situation then it already is.
but.
i know it will always remain as it is.
bursts of happiness surrounded by empty constellations of time and distraction.
and that will be how it remains.
i am static.
as for me.
non-sobriety has taught me that for the moments of the day that i am actually sober i am infact searching fiendishly for some sort of excuse to not think of anything that could lead me down the road of recounting my summer.
its so very difficult to be in such a misplaced area of my life.
the standard yearly evolution has gone in a very strange direction.
ive grown up into an adult, at least as far as attitude and expression, as well as a death to enthusiasm.
while the thoughts of the entire universe that she held within her eyes still haunt me, and those plans we made all fell through with a very graceful silence around them, ive found that im blocking and forgetting everything about those days, as you have obviously done. but that is always the way of things.
currently something else confuses me.
and it will always.
if you understand where i am coming from.
and you say you want to know what it would be like to spend more time together.
then why do we never follow through with those yeanring thoughts.
whynot?
i wish i knew it to be easier, and i wish to know it be a much happier situation then it already is.
but.
i know it will always remain as it is.
bursts of happiness surrounded by empty constellations of time and distraction.
and that will be how it remains.
i am static.