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Kakuzo(an L5R character I'd been playing for quite a while and grown quite fond of.) died tonight, murdered by the Lying Darkness. Not really a surprise all things considered but I'm still kinda bummed-out about it.
It's kinda sad that fictional characters are my primary social outlet, and even my "real" socialization revolves almost exclusively around a game store. Before that it was UMSFS. And even in such bastions of societal-misfitishness I still feel terribly awkward and outside-looking-in-ish.
I get these self-reflective moments sometimes, and I know I should try to change the things that bother me but I don't have the energy to try, nor do I know how to even if I were going to make the attempt, even the intervention failed.
It's kinda sad that fictional characters are my primary social outlet, and even my "real" socialization revolves almost exclusively around a game store. Before that it was UMSFS. And even in such bastions of societal-misfitishness I still feel terribly awkward and outside-looking-in-ish.
I get these self-reflective moments sometimes, and I know I should try to change the things that bother me but I don't have the energy to try, nor do I know how to even if I were going to make the attempt, even the intervention failed.