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So its the new year and you know what I already don't like it.
My car door is locked froze all the time people called out of work so im covering 52 hours this week. A fucking bomb ass check but im miserable and it doesnt help people make me worse. I want to loose my weight so fast i want people to notice but i guess its in my head and im not. Its not even a new year resolution its just in general my life goal for my friends to see that just because im not like 5'1 and tiny i can be skinny. everyone was right . i cant talk to you it fustrates me. i want to tell you how everytime i see you i get hurt because you lie to my face. i want to tell you your present hurt me i put so much thought into it you have no idea i dont think you care. and you say your going to get me something but you dont you get her something so expensive and it not about the money its the thought and your present is what you give people your not close to and you hurt me. you also hurt me you think we just argue about it but no you bother me too you always have to tell me why im being ridiclous and why i need to calm down because how im wrong. i listen to you all the time and i never tell you that the other person your yelling about is right but you always do maybe because its always about the other persont hat hurts me which fucks me in my head because i cant talk to anyone about it because they dont understand or theyll say a comment i dont wna to do i just want people to get me to see i hurt everyday and hate me everyday im not normal.and you both make it so bad sometimes i want to leave and run away like far away and never exist.....
My new year resolution is for 2008 please make this one a good one i might have a mental break down.
My car door is locked froze all the time people called out of work so im covering 52 hours this week. A fucking bomb ass check but im miserable and it doesnt help people make me worse. I want to loose my weight so fast i want people to notice but i guess its in my head and im not. Its not even a new year resolution its just in general my life goal for my friends to see that just because im not like 5'1 and tiny i can be skinny. everyone was right . i cant talk to you it fustrates me. i want to tell you how everytime i see you i get hurt because you lie to my face. i want to tell you your present hurt me i put so much thought into it you have no idea i dont think you care. and you say your going to get me something but you dont you get her something so expensive and it not about the money its the thought and your present is what you give people your not close to and you hurt me. you also hurt me you think we just argue about it but no you bother me too you always have to tell me why im being ridiclous and why i need to calm down because how im wrong. i listen to you all the time and i never tell you that the other person your yelling about is right but you always do maybe because its always about the other persont hat hurts me which fucks me in my head because i cant talk to anyone about it because they dont understand or theyll say a comment i dont wna to do i just want people to get me to see i hurt everyday and hate me everyday im not normal.and you both make it so bad sometimes i want to leave and run away like far away and never exist.....
My new year resolution is for 2008 please make this one a good one i might have a mental break down.