I really don't want to get involved.
But is that because I'm really that scared?
And am I still scared of rejection?
He totally loves me, said it himself.
I am totally scared shitless to trust a guy.
Oh my God I am scared, and running, and scared.
Mainly running.
Oh God.

(I just want to point out the irony of the situation at hand. Yes, its irony

And its the count down.
5 additions to my Black Book.
4 new best friends.
3 amazing experiences.
2 doors opened.
1 tragedy.
Begin again, everything.
Time to rewind;
Take it from the top.
Newly remastered,
Fresh repitition
Stealing the show
False second chance...
Or third chance...
Or fifteenth chance.
The new year already feels old.

Sterling died Saturday and I can't believe it.
I still can't wrap my mind around this.
If you pray please pray.
The world is messed up.

So...hahaha, I thought I had too much booty LAST time I posted.
Add about five more and we're set.
Heaven save me.
<3

So I have one boy that I love so much I think I'd die without him ( Read more... )

If I'm not the worst person I know then God help me.
Yeah...I kinda lost control of the whole thing somewhere WAY back there.
::shrugs:: Whatever.
Live crazy.

Listen to this:
Daniel and I are on a "break".
Something is going on with a boy and it excites me.
Something else is going on with another boy and it is wrong on so many levels.
I love my men, what can I say.

But I think I know what I want in the end anyway.

I just have to work towards it.

This is part of the plan.

"God Lyle, every word you've said to me tonight has been mean ( Read more... )

So what if I wanted you?

I have a job.

Hooray.