Alone and NOT Loving it
I was just looking at my Yahoo Buddy list and thinking, I'm going to die a lonely old pissed off gay man. I keep my list culled down, removing those that either never get online, always stay invisible and never talk to me or have just fuckin pissed me off. There's only one "friend" on the list showing online at this time and I know he's not there. His status is "Out and About" which it's been since before 10 pm last night. If his recent history is any indication of his where-abouts, he's screwing his best friend's partner (without his best friend knowing about it)and spent the night at their house which is his normal modus operandi. How he can look his best friend in the eye all throughout this affair is beyond my skills of comprehension. When he and I were exploring the possibility of a relationship, he admitted to cheating on his partner because he was not getting enough sex and didn't want to think about how many married str8 guys he had screwed him. And I'm supposed to believe he will be faithful to me? Why? Just seing his status line reminds me of all this. He's coming off my buddy list too. That leaves me with 9 people to chat with on yahoo with none of them online.
I do not have a Myspace page, I never liked Myspace, my page was always dull, drab and "non-gay, non-glittery" boring. I do have a Facebook (I don't like them either due to their policy of freely sharing of your information) page which contains over 100 "friends" which will be culled down over the Christmas holidays. I have "friends" on there from previous relationships that after the relationship ended, the family members of those former individuals are still there... many out of town and out of reach, who really have no interests in my daily dribble. They are always nice, "you should come visit" but it's always awkward. They need removing. There are friends of friends of friends on there, people I will probably never meet but if I do and I like them, I'll add them back. And then there are my friends that let me know that no matter how alone I get in this world, they are always there for me to talk to.
Well it's Wednesday, another boring day at work right before the Christmas holidays and our Christmas party at work will be held today off-site. The Prez of the company said something about Macaroni Grill (one of my favorite places to eat) and I hope that is our destination. He also said something about just knocking off after that and going home. I had one vacation day left (I have been saving it just for this occasion) and when I leave the Christmas Party today, I won't be coming in tomorrow since I am taking it off, the last day before Christmas break. I have to endure yet another 3 hours of boredom. I have no idea what I'm going to do after the Christmas break; we don't come back till the 3rd of January.
Our Controller at work screwed up my paycheck, I told him under no circumstances was the payroll company we use to put my check in my old account. I told him if they had to issue me a paper check... fine, don't deposit it. He agreed and told me he needed my new acct info by Tuesday, I emailed it to him that Monday afternoon and it was deposited in my old account anyway and they(financial institution) would not return it. So he had them issue me a paper check and now since they have "on paper" paid me twice, I owe one of them back that they are taking out from each paycheck around $200 each. There went my Christmas shopping for this year. I hope he's happy he messed up my family's Christmas for me. Payback's a bitch and that bitch will get his.
I do not have a Myspace page, I never liked Myspace, my page was always dull, drab and "non-gay, non-glittery" boring. I do have a Facebook (I don't like them either due to their policy of freely sharing of your information) page which contains over 100 "friends" which will be culled down over the Christmas holidays. I have "friends" on there from previous relationships that after the relationship ended, the family members of those former individuals are still there... many out of town and out of reach, who really have no interests in my daily dribble. They are always nice, "you should come visit" but it's always awkward. They need removing. There are friends of friends of friends on there, people I will probably never meet but if I do and I like them, I'll add them back. And then there are my friends that let me know that no matter how alone I get in this world, they are always there for me to talk to.
Well it's Wednesday, another boring day at work right before the Christmas holidays and our Christmas party at work will be held today off-site. The Prez of the company said something about Macaroni Grill (one of my favorite places to eat) and I hope that is our destination. He also said something about just knocking off after that and going home. I had one vacation day left (I have been saving it just for this occasion) and when I leave the Christmas Party today, I won't be coming in tomorrow since I am taking it off, the last day before Christmas break. I have to endure yet another 3 hours of boredom. I have no idea what I'm going to do after the Christmas break; we don't come back till the 3rd of January.
Our Controller at work screwed up my paycheck, I told him under no circumstances was the payroll company we use to put my check in my old account. I told him if they had to issue me a paper check... fine, don't deposit it. He agreed and told me he needed my new acct info by Tuesday, I emailed it to him that Monday afternoon and it was deposited in my old account anyway and they(financial institution) would not return it. So he had them issue me a paper check and now since they have "on paper" paid me twice, I owe one of them back that they are taking out from each paycheck around $200 each. There went my Christmas shopping for this year. I hope he's happy he messed up my family's Christmas for me. Payback's a bitch and that bitch will get his.