Hmmm, the depths of my mind work in mysterious ways…
I’m not sure of what I should do, I’m getting confused…one moment I think Lauren is really into me and other times I’m not sure. I know its wrong, but I asked a friend of mine to talk to her about me, discreetly, what I got back wasn’t necessarily bad, but it wasn’t great news… she said to nick( my friend) that she sometimes likes me but other times she isn’t sure, which explains what in just aid…but she loves me, then he went on to tell me that when she really does want to be with me it will be too late, that I may just forget her and find someone else…well that wont happen for LONG time, because I’m in love with her and I don’t want any one else, yea I know its pathetic, oh well. I’m just confused, I’m thinking of writing an e-mail telling her how much I care for her and why I would be a good boyfriend to her… I would tell her in person or on the phone but I’m too much of a pussy to do that…but what do you guys who read my journal think that I should do, should I just give up and push all my feeling don and ignore them or should I act on them and find out if we should back together…man love is confusing.
Semper Fi
Matthew
Semper Fi
Matthew