Man...sometimes you just got to be away from te pressure

[lone_wolf2005]

Well I got new glasses, they are cool I guess, they are stronger then my last pair so I guess its all good. Race weekend sucked pretty badly, I had to baby sit these two 14 year olds, and they are boy friend girlfriend, which is something I DON’T need to see right now. The pain of loosing Lauren again and watching the two lip wranglers kiss all day was almost too much for me to handle, but I don’t care I know I have to move on, but fuck that she makes me smile when I talk to her, she makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside, she makes me happy for once in my pitiful sack-of-shit life. I am still going to try and make it work with her; I don’t want her to be hurt. But then again I don’t want to spend the rest of my life wondering what could have been. I’m gonna give it another shot, I love her so much it is indescribable of the love I feel for her. I would not hesitate to die for her to make sure she would be happy, but if it isn’t ment to be then I will move on as a heartless soul roaming the earth for my completion. But who knows maybe things will work out and I will be able to go out with her. God, the thought of her being in my arms and kissing me gently sends shivers down my spine…I hope it will work out this way…please let it work out this way…please.
FUCK OFF
MAtthew