this is summer?
my life has turned into driving and work, driving and work. occasionally i go out, usually with phil, to see a movie or to hang out with other people. i have only really seen laur and manda, lisa and liz a little as well. i work, i get up in the morning and go to work, and work and work all day, and go home. my feet rarely hurt anymore, i guess they are used to it. i'm no longer the new girl, now i don't know what i am, but i think i get along well with everyone.
then the other half of me is driving. driving to work, driving home from work. driving to get gas, driving to clear my head, driving aimlessly. i love driving, the only part i dislike is paying for gas. my paychecks barely help me get through two weeks before i get another one. i'm supposed to be putting all this money into my savings for school but i honestly can't manage without using a lot of it. at this rate i'll save about $23.50.
i don't know what's going on with me, or with phil. it's a bunch of hills. some days things are good and then the next day they'll be stupid. i guess that's how it always is, even when we are together, but just when we're not it makes it a lot more apparent. some days he seems like he really wants things to work out for us; other days it seems like i don't even know him. i don't know what's going to happen still. so i'm just waiting right now.
it's not like i'm wasting my time. i'm not looking to meet anyone else right now, and i can't especially with being so busy with work and otherwise having no life. i really wish i could do something for us, but he doesn't want to talk about it. so we'll just leave it at that for now then.
that, sadly, is my update. "these lines of lightening mean we're never alone, never alone, no no."
then the other half of me is driving. driving to work, driving home from work. driving to get gas, driving to clear my head, driving aimlessly. i love driving, the only part i dislike is paying for gas. my paychecks barely help me get through two weeks before i get another one. i'm supposed to be putting all this money into my savings for school but i honestly can't manage without using a lot of it. at this rate i'll save about $23.50.
i don't know what's going on with me, or with phil. it's a bunch of hills. some days things are good and then the next day they'll be stupid. i guess that's how it always is, even when we are together, but just when we're not it makes it a lot more apparent. some days he seems like he really wants things to work out for us; other days it seems like i don't even know him. i don't know what's going to happen still. so i'm just waiting right now.
it's not like i'm wasting my time. i'm not looking to meet anyone else right now, and i can't especially with being so busy with work and otherwise having no life. i really wish i could do something for us, but he doesn't want to talk about it. so we'll just leave it at that for now then.
that, sadly, is my update. "these lines of lightening mean we're never alone, never alone, no no."