social frustrations
I'm really missing not having a personal blog, like a diary blog, for personal life and feelings, like it was in the past. no more possibility to write out my issues out in the open.
I feel like I'm having done serious issues now. I didn't do much work last week so I planned to work this week properly, full time. stated home on Monday and did nothing, same today. considering staying home tomorrow too. I watched a movie and now it's 5 am. heh. somehow, I just don't care. what's the purpose anyway?
My life is weird now. I have awesome classmates and friends, and more social life than ever. everyday I go to the gym and start to feel better about my body. but I'm still so horribly lonely and not motivated. I like all the things I'm doing now, some more than others, but I really find it hard to find a reason to get up in the morning. I really want a boyfriend, somewhat for whom I'd matter and who could be by my side. I really start lifting hope it will ever happen. probably not in Sweden at least...