I'm the one that's got to die when it's time for me to die

[lollyb]

I'm hanging out in Aaron's room, I just snorted a bit of some pharmaceutical that's like valium...before I came over I wanted to just kick and scream and kill everyone. So, today was to be the day that I began packing, unfortunately, I stayed up kinda late, so I slept late, and so it didnt go down like that. helena comes home and decides she's gonna clean out everything in my brother's room, which til now has sort of been used for storage, I really wish that I hadn't had to deal with all of that extra stuff before I'd gotten some things packed...It's really more complicated than that, but I don't feel like going into it. Sometimes I wish she and my dad would just die. But, I digress. I just get overwhelmed and stressed out easily. Especially with my dad always hassling me about everything and nothing. I can't wait to go to Washington. Sweet sweet freedom...I'll bet it tastes fucking good. I watched Iron Jawed Angels last night, which was this movie on HBO about suffragists. It was pretty rad. I want desperately to act on my convictions, but as long as I allow myself to be oppressed by anyone, in anyway, including myself, I don't think I can, I'm not one for hypocrisy. lately, when I've updated, I really haven't had anything to talk about...

so let me live my life, the way I want to.