Wanna Leave, Wanna Go
Ahh I am really due for an Update. It has been about a month already. Time is going by so fast ohhh damn.
So I guess house sitting for Chef for no money payed off because I got a .50 cent raise and a promotion. Going to be learning Brunch meat station! Holla! Yay I will get weekend nights off soon! That makes me excited. Then I can hang with the girls and Family. I am really looking for a place and a roomate to live with me around Northgate area. or Wallingford. Somewhere closer to work. The driving is getting expensive & I am getting the feeling that Dad can't afford to support me much anymore so it is about time to stop being selfish & take care of myself. So many people are having such a hard time now a days. Its depressing. I'm on my way up and everyone else is on their way out.
When I am not working I get so restless here, but I am lazy on my days off. There is so much I want to improve in my life but I get so tired cause I am running myself dry. I need to wake up earlier, eat more, keep my room / car more organized ... ahhh & actually actively go after what I want. I think most of my success has been luck, being at the right place at the right time. I don't feel like I have done anything spectacular. There is so much I want to do but feel like I lack the intelligence to wrap my head around it all. Everything is progressing and moving so fast, I'm barley keeping up.
Maybe I should start makeing life to do lists like my prep lists at work. Maybe then some shit will get done. Maybe I just want to much. I Dunno. Everyone else makes it look so easy. They can just say, hey I wanna do this and somehow work it into their schedule & voila, they are living the life.
I need to take more risks & put myself out there. I think my career is heading in the right direction, but my personal life is sinking to the bottom of the ocean. haha
So in order to start this whole tranformation off I am going to drive to Olympia on Friday to see IAN! haha miss that guy. He is hilarious. Oh & more importantly I am going to wake up early tomorrow & do a ton of shit before my work week starts. Just thinking about it all overwhelms me. But I need to stay above that and plow through. Haha it is the TILTH way.
So I guess house sitting for Chef for no money payed off because I got a .50 cent raise and a promotion. Going to be learning Brunch meat station! Holla! Yay I will get weekend nights off soon! That makes me excited. Then I can hang with the girls and Family. I am really looking for a place and a roomate to live with me around Northgate area. or Wallingford. Somewhere closer to work. The driving is getting expensive & I am getting the feeling that Dad can't afford to support me much anymore so it is about time to stop being selfish & take care of myself. So many people are having such a hard time now a days. Its depressing. I'm on my way up and everyone else is on their way out.
When I am not working I get so restless here, but I am lazy on my days off. There is so much I want to improve in my life but I get so tired cause I am running myself dry. I need to wake up earlier, eat more, keep my room / car more organized ... ahhh & actually actively go after what I want. I think most of my success has been luck, being at the right place at the right time. I don't feel like I have done anything spectacular. There is so much I want to do but feel like I lack the intelligence to wrap my head around it all. Everything is progressing and moving so fast, I'm barley keeping up.
Maybe I should start makeing life to do lists like my prep lists at work. Maybe then some shit will get done. Maybe I just want to much. I Dunno. Everyone else makes it look so easy. They can just say, hey I wanna do this and somehow work it into their schedule & voila, they are living the life.
I need to take more risks & put myself out there. I think my career is heading in the right direction, but my personal life is sinking to the bottom of the ocean. haha
So in order to start this whole tranformation off I am going to drive to Olympia on Friday to see IAN! haha miss that guy. He is hilarious. Oh & more importantly I am going to wake up early tomorrow & do a ton of shit before my work week starts. Just thinking about it all overwhelms me. But I need to stay above that and plow through. Haha it is the TILTH way.