Such is life.
It seems every time something like super awesome happens to me something REALLY BAD happens simultaneously. It's really kind of terrible and it's sort of killing me inside.
I didn't really go to school this week even though I have Mid Terms all next week. Oops. Instead I got a haircut and hung out with my stylist. Gettin' my haircuts for free for doing her design work which is sweet. We chilled and talked about different ways to get business. She's going to the comic con with me which is pretty sweet hahaha. She's like 32 what the hell. Nice lady though.
I've been hanging out with my friend Jessi at the Heroes and Villains tattoo shop. It's mostly just awesome. I'm learning all this crazy shit about piercing and body mods from Dan. I'm honestly considering getting my ears pointed hahaha. I'm either getting my ears punched high up and my ears stretched or pointing my ears and getting them punched lower down. As well as stretching my lobes.
Tonight we sterilized things and packaged them to put in the Autoclave. Also we watched Digimon and had a nap.
Since I did tons of design work for Dan he'd was gonna give me supreme discounts on printing. Defs saving up this summer for body mods. NOT getting them all at once clearly. But still.
In other bad news I did not get the internship I applied for. To be fair I turned it down. My instructor asked ME right up, and talked me up for the whole thing. I turned it down because I figured someone else would benefit from the experience, so then I got what I deserved. Someone else got the job.
I should have said yes. This is ridiculous. Oh well. I'm an idiot. My only options now are to work part time at CSM over the summer and hate my life a little bit or put my name out through Dan's girlfriend's.. mom.. To other print shops and see if I get a job. The downside to that is they'd probably pay me way less than CSM and also are potentially in the middle of fucking nowhere on the other side of the city. Fuck this game.
I am sort of miserable all around. I am pretty tired of getting rejected. Tomorrow I have to go to a party to see the girl I really like with the guy she actually likes. Why the fuck would this girl let me flirt with her THAT much. And flirt back. Like. Text kissing me. Cuddling. Telling me we should have baths together. And then be like. Oh I don't want a relationship. Ever. And I actually like this guy named Brad who I talk to on the phone every night. Also he looks like some sort of creepy bald pedophile. Fuck. What the fuck. Is she that insecure she thinks I wouldn't be friends with her if she didn't want to fuck me?
She came over and stayed the night and we spent the whole night cuddling and kissing and slept together in my bed! Some sort of non sexual one night stand? I hope Brad doesn't know she did this, he'd be pissed. On second thought, I hope he finds out.
I just want to know why she'd let me think anything would ever happen. And now I feel so fucking bummed because she's telling me how much didn't think she'd ever find such a good friend since she lost her last one. Like.. I want to be there for her. And be friends. On the other hand, I also want to shake her and ask her what the hell she's doing.
Dear adorable girls, please fall in love with me. And then don't fuck me over. Sincerely, Gabe.
Going to go sleep with my babies now.
I didn't really go to school this week even though I have Mid Terms all next week. Oops. Instead I got a haircut and hung out with my stylist. Gettin' my haircuts for free for doing her design work which is sweet. We chilled and talked about different ways to get business. She's going to the comic con with me which is pretty sweet hahaha. She's like 32 what the hell. Nice lady though.
I've been hanging out with my friend Jessi at the Heroes and Villains tattoo shop. It's mostly just awesome. I'm learning all this crazy shit about piercing and body mods from Dan. I'm honestly considering getting my ears pointed hahaha. I'm either getting my ears punched high up and my ears stretched or pointing my ears and getting them punched lower down. As well as stretching my lobes.
Tonight we sterilized things and packaged them to put in the Autoclave. Also we watched Digimon and had a nap.
Since I did tons of design work for Dan he'd was gonna give me supreme discounts on printing. Defs saving up this summer for body mods. NOT getting them all at once clearly. But still.
In other bad news I did not get the internship I applied for. To be fair I turned it down. My instructor asked ME right up, and talked me up for the whole thing. I turned it down because I figured someone else would benefit from the experience, so then I got what I deserved. Someone else got the job.
I should have said yes. This is ridiculous. Oh well. I'm an idiot. My only options now are to work part time at CSM over the summer and hate my life a little bit or put my name out through Dan's girlfriend's.. mom.. To other print shops and see if I get a job. The downside to that is they'd probably pay me way less than CSM and also are potentially in the middle of fucking nowhere on the other side of the city. Fuck this game.
I am sort of miserable all around. I am pretty tired of getting rejected. Tomorrow I have to go to a party to see the girl I really like with the guy she actually likes. Why the fuck would this girl let me flirt with her THAT much. And flirt back. Like. Text kissing me. Cuddling. Telling me we should have baths together. And then be like. Oh I don't want a relationship. Ever. And I actually like this guy named Brad who I talk to on the phone every night. Also he looks like some sort of creepy bald pedophile. Fuck. What the fuck. Is she that insecure she thinks I wouldn't be friends with her if she didn't want to fuck me?
She came over and stayed the night and we spent the whole night cuddling and kissing and slept together in my bed! Some sort of non sexual one night stand? I hope Brad doesn't know she did this, he'd be pissed. On second thought, I hope he finds out.
I just want to know why she'd let me think anything would ever happen. And now I feel so fucking bummed because she's telling me how much didn't think she'd ever find such a good friend since she lost her last one. Like.. I want to be there for her. And be friends. On the other hand, I also want to shake her and ask her what the hell she's doing.
Dear adorable girls, please fall in love with me. And then don't fuck me over. Sincerely, Gabe.
Going to go sleep with my babies now.