Cloud no. 9

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1) All fills for prompts of the earlier prompt posts go in the post the prompt was posted in. No re-posting or splitting up prompts and fills.
2) Self-prompt when you post unprompted fic. (This means posting what the fill is about in a first comment, like a real prompt, and commenting on that with your fill.)
3) Try not to get too srs business.

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Mandelbell/brown Fill 1/2

[anonymous]

They've both changed a lot over the years. Perhaps they've even mellowed. Certainly, they're not scared of each other any more; Peter talks openly about the boys he likes without fear of upsetting his partner, while Alastair does the same, confident in the knowledge that if Peter planned to leave him for someone younger then he would have done so long ago. Sometimes they share fantasies and sometimes they act on them. They're getting older now, and (though there's no exact date to celebrate) approaching their fifteenth anniversary, and still nowhere near scraping the bottom of the barrel yet. It feels like time is slipping away before they've had a chance to explore each other.

One day, months after Question Time planted the idea in his head, Peter shares his oldest, closest, most repellent fantasy of all. He doesn't disguise it this time with vague cracks about how much the false accent turns him on. On the contrary, he is unusually direct, casual in a way that belies his true uneasiness and the weeks of planning that have led up to this moment: "I want you to be Gordon tonight."

Silence descends.

Alastair can't say he's too surprised. They always knew that Peter wanted Gordon - everyone knew - in the beginning, Alastair had even felt that he'd been settled for as second best. Over the years, though, the obsession faded to admiration and then to a memory, became something that was never discussed because they had each other and Gordon was out of the equation. Even when Peter got his peerage and was stuck working closely with Gordon again, that same fixation was never quite rekindled. But now, as Peter starts to talk about his dreams from back in the day, Alastair realises that Peter's infatuation with Gordon is still much stronger than he imagined. The shadow that falls across his dark eyes, the lust in his voice... he speaks the man's name like that of a saint and gives him all the active verbs: 'Gordon pushes me,' 'Gordon kisses me,' 'Gordon takes me.'

By the end, Alastair's feeling a little sick. He also knows beyond shadow of a doubt that Gordon is something he wants to be for Peter. Anything that provokes that level of devotion in his lover is something worth being; hell, Alastair would abstain for Peter if he wanted it badly enough. "I promise," he says, loving the gratitude on Peter's face. "Have everything ready. I'll do what I can to make this work for you."