Diary of a.............
Thursday, March 2, 2017 6:43am
Dear Diary Journal,
So, I’m not really sure what I’m supposed to do here. The doc (you) said that this is supposed to be therapeutic or something. I mean you’re the only one who’s going to be reading this. You know I don’t like discussing my romantic life with you but whatever. I don’t know how this is supposed to help people when THEY are the ones having trouble with THEIR relationship, but you’re the doctor so here goes…
I should probably give you a little background so you can understand Jessie and I better.
I met Jessica almost a year ago. It was a cloudy Tuesday afternoon and her receptionist had called me up to their fifth-floor office to help with a computer issue. I work on the third floor for an IT company and we did service for the entire building. When they directed me to her office I thought it was going to be just like any other day, but then I saw HER. I knocked on the doorframe,
“Come on in. I’m sorry. Just give me one second.”
She had her back to me and was trying to fax something. Tall and thin, with red hair and the most beautiful voice I had ever heard. The moment our eyes made contact we could just feel the connection. Jessica and I made small talk as I fixed her computer, but you could tell there was something more between us. As I was leaving her office she gently took my hand in hers and looked into my eyes,
“It was a pleasure to finally meet you, Joe. Everyone talks about how great you are with computers, but the stories don’t do you justice at all. Oh! And by the way, you can call me Jessie.”
Her smile beamed and I couldn’t resist smiling back.
I need to get ready for work. I’ll type more in a bit.
*saved* 7:24amThursday, March 2, 2017 7:47am
Dear Journal,
So continuing…
Over the next few months we were e-mailing each other regularly. Jessie would “have trouble” with something computer related and I would go up to her office so we could chat. We talked about everything, and the more we talked, the more connected we became. We liked so many of the same things. Had so many of the same dreams. I couldn’t believe that I had finally met the love of my life all because of a computer glitch!
At this point it had been six months and we were seeing each other at least three or four times a week. Her company was upgrading their computer systems so it gave us an excuse to spend even more time together. When I told her that I was looking into moving to an apartment that was closer to work she was so excited for me!
“That’s really great Joe!”
She was grinning when she said it and I knew it was because she knew we would be living closer to each other. What she didn’t know was that I had put a deposit down on the apartment below hers and just needed the current tenant to finish their lease. They were set to move out the end of February and I couldn’t wait to surprise Jessie!
When the day finally came, I was so excited nervous excited! She knew I was moving, but I hadn’t told her where. I knew the suspense was killing her but I was too excited about the surprise. I mean, I had kept it a secret for this long, I couldn’t give in now!
I thought it would be cute if we just “happened” to run into each other one day while doing our daily routines. In my head, it seemed so exciting! “Just like in the movies!” I kept telling myself. She’ll see you and realize that both of you really do want the same thing! That all of those little “hints” she had been dropping had been heard loud and clear! Women love a man who listens!
But she didn’t seem as excited about the move as I had hoped she’d be. I mean, don’t get me wrong, she wasn’t upset… I guess I just expected more. We seemed to be moving out of the “honeymoon phase” of our relationship and were now reaching that “comfortable” quality you get with someone who really gets you.
Gotta leave for work now, but today is supposed to be a slow day.
*saved* 8:36amThursday, March 2, 2017 12:02pm
Dear Journal,
This morning was busier than I expected so I’m writing on my lunch hour.
Jessie has been working late because her firm just got a really big case. She’s amazing at her job and she’s worked hard to get to where she is, so I totally understand all of the late nights. Besides, I spent most of the yesterday moving stuff in while she was at work so it’s not like I was around to see her either. I ended up falling asleep on the couch pretty early. Moving is exhausting. Maybe I should have made more of an effort to see her. Maybe she wouldn’t be so upset with me now. SHE would have made the effort.
I just got a phone call and they’re telling me that I’m going to be out of the office for the rest of the afternoon. I will try and write more when I get home tonight.
*saved* 12:29pmThursday, March 2, 2017 11:17pm
Dear Journal,
Our first official “run in” was tonight. I had just gone down to get my mail and Jessie walked in. She was on her phone writing a text or sending another e-mail so she barely looked up when she walked on to the elevator. I pressed my floor and waited for her to look up from her phone.
“Can you press 4 please?” She said without looking up. I didn’t want to ruin the surprise so I pressed it without saying anything. I knew if she heard my voice it would give it away! I stood next to her as she continued to type away on her phone. For a second I thought about just saying, “Hi there beautiful.” But it was our eyes that usually did the loudest speaking so I just held my breath. When my floor *dinged* three I got out and right as the doors started to close I said,
“I hope you have a good night.” She looked up just as the doors were closing and I saw that tell-tale tired smile on her face. She had had a long day and really needed sleep. At first I thought she might be ignoring me because I hadn’t said hello yesterday, but once I got to my apartment I realized that she was probably just exhausted and we were going to see each other tomorrow anyway.
*saved* 11:56pmFriday, March 3, 2017 7:47am
Dear Journal,
That brings us to today and I just realized it’s almost 8 and I have to leave for work. I should have some time when I first get in, plus I should finally get a chance to talk to Jessie. She usually leaves around 8:10. I know she’s upset with me and I really hope she gives me a chance to explain.
*saved* 7:53amFriday, March 3, 2017 9:01am
Dear Journal,
So I think we had our first fight last night. Jessie really gets upset when I watch TV too loud but usually I can tell when she wants me to turn it down. She actually called the landlord on me. I can’t believe she didn’t just come talk to me. She must really be angry about me not coming to say hello to her. Maybe I’ll be able to talk to her at some point today.
*saved* 9:17amFriday, March 3, 2017 11:16am
Dear Journal,
Jessie sent me an e-mail a few minutes ago about a problem she’s having with her computer. She definitely wants to talk. I hope she will listen to what I have to say.
*saved* 11:22amFriday, March 3, 2017 1:27pm
Dear Journal,
She didn’t even look at me! I walked into her office like I always do and there she was but she didn’t smile… she didn’t wave or say hello… she just kept talking to Tiffany her stupid receptionist about how they’re going out for drinks tonight! She totally knew I could hear her! How could she spend OUR first Friday night in our new place together with her friends?!? What is she trying to prove with this nonsense? I moved for her! I am the one who is making all of these changes for HER and she acts like she doesn’t even care! What did I do to deserve this? My boss is coming...
*saved* 1:57pm
Friday, March 3, 2017 7:47pm
Dear Journal,
She still isn’t home. I wonder how long she is planning on making my wait… Is this just some game to her??? Our love is so beautiful and she is just throwing it away!! I need to make her see that we belong together!!! I need her to understand that we were right in thinking that we were perfect together!!! Why can’t she just SEE?????????????
*saved* 8:09pmFriday, March 3, 2017 9:59pm
Dear Journal,
WHERE THE FUCK IS SHE?!?!?!? WHO THE HELL DOES SHE THINK SHE IS?????? I SWEAR IF SHE THINKS SHE CAN JUST WALK ALL OVER ME SHE IS WRONG!!!! THIS IS NOT HOW A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP WORKS!!!!!! CAN’T YOU SEE WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT DOC?????? I’M NOT THE PROBLEM!!!! SHE IS!!!!
*saved* 10:16pmFriday, March 3, 2017 11:46pm
Dear Journal,
I just heard her get home. I need to go talk to her. There has to be a way to work this out. Maybe she just needed to let off some steam with the girls… That better be the reason… I’ll tell you how our conversation goes in tomorrow’s session. Sorry I have to cut this short but I really need to just talk to her……….
*saved* 12:01am
*sent* 12:02amNEW YORK TIMES Saturday, March 4, 2017
DAIRY OF A STALKER
In the early morning hours of Saturday, March 4, 2017, Jessica Morris was found murdered in her fourth-floor apartment after a psychologist alerted police about an e-mail “diary” he had received from a patient. The man, Joe Smith, had worked in the same building as Ms. Morris as an IT specialist. After reading the e-mail sent from Mr. Smith, Dr. James Monroe called authorities immediately believing that Ms. Morris’ life may be in danger. Sadly, he was too late. Mr. Smith had a long history of mental illness and it was discovered that he had formed an irrational and unfounded relationship with Ms. Morris. Authorities believe that she had no idea she was being stalked. A BOLO has been issued for Joe Smith and any persons who have any information regarding his whereabouts are urged to contact the authorities at the number listed below.
Dear Diary Journal,
So, I’m not really sure what I’m supposed to do here. The doc (you) said that this is supposed to be therapeutic or something. I mean you’re the only one who’s going to be reading this. You know I don’t like discussing my romantic life with you but whatever. I don’t know how this is supposed to help people when THEY are the ones having trouble with THEIR relationship, but you’re the doctor so here goes…
I should probably give you a little background so you can understand Jessie and I better.
I met Jessica almost a year ago. It was a cloudy Tuesday afternoon and her receptionist had called me up to their fifth-floor office to help with a computer issue. I work on the third floor for an IT company and we did service for the entire building. When they directed me to her office I thought it was going to be just like any other day, but then I saw HER. I knocked on the doorframe,
“Come on in. I’m sorry. Just give me one second.”
She had her back to me and was trying to fax something. Tall and thin, with red hair and the most beautiful voice I had ever heard. The moment our eyes made contact we could just feel the connection. Jessica and I made small talk as I fixed her computer, but you could tell there was something more between us. As I was leaving her office she gently took my hand in hers and looked into my eyes,
“It was a pleasure to finally meet you, Joe. Everyone talks about how great you are with computers, but the stories don’t do you justice at all. Oh! And by the way, you can call me Jessie.”
Her smile beamed and I couldn’t resist smiling back.
I need to get ready for work. I’ll type more in a bit.
*saved* 7:24amThursday, March 2, 2017 7:47am
Dear Journal,
So continuing…
Over the next few months we were e-mailing each other regularly. Jessie would “have trouble” with something computer related and I would go up to her office so we could chat. We talked about everything, and the more we talked, the more connected we became. We liked so many of the same things. Had so many of the same dreams. I couldn’t believe that I had finally met the love of my life all because of a computer glitch!
At this point it had been six months and we were seeing each other at least three or four times a week. Her company was upgrading their computer systems so it gave us an excuse to spend even more time together. When I told her that I was looking into moving to an apartment that was closer to work she was so excited for me!
“That’s really great Joe!”
She was grinning when she said it and I knew it was because she knew we would be living closer to each other. What she didn’t know was that I had put a deposit down on the apartment below hers and just needed the current tenant to finish their lease. They were set to move out the end of February and I couldn’t wait to surprise Jessie!
When the day finally came, I was so excited nervous excited! She knew I was moving, but I hadn’t told her where. I knew the suspense was killing her but I was too excited about the surprise. I mean, I had kept it a secret for this long, I couldn’t give in now!
I thought it would be cute if we just “happened” to run into each other one day while doing our daily routines. In my head, it seemed so exciting! “Just like in the movies!” I kept telling myself. She’ll see you and realize that both of you really do want the same thing! That all of those little “hints” she had been dropping had been heard loud and clear! Women love a man who listens!
But she didn’t seem as excited about the move as I had hoped she’d be. I mean, don’t get me wrong, she wasn’t upset… I guess I just expected more. We seemed to be moving out of the “honeymoon phase” of our relationship and were now reaching that “comfortable” quality you get with someone who really gets you.
Gotta leave for work now, but today is supposed to be a slow day.
*saved* 8:36amThursday, March 2, 2017 12:02pm
Dear Journal,
This morning was busier than I expected so I’m writing on my lunch hour.
Jessie has been working late because her firm just got a really big case. She’s amazing at her job and she’s worked hard to get to where she is, so I totally understand all of the late nights. Besides, I spent most of the yesterday moving stuff in while she was at work so it’s not like I was around to see her either. I ended up falling asleep on the couch pretty early. Moving is exhausting. Maybe I should have made more of an effort to see her. Maybe she wouldn’t be so upset with me now. SHE would have made the effort.
I just got a phone call and they’re telling me that I’m going to be out of the office for the rest of the afternoon. I will try and write more when I get home tonight.
*saved* 12:29pmThursday, March 2, 2017 11:17pm
Dear Journal,
Our first official “run in” was tonight. I had just gone down to get my mail and Jessie walked in. She was on her phone writing a text or sending another e-mail so she barely looked up when she walked on to the elevator. I pressed my floor and waited for her to look up from her phone.
“Can you press 4 please?” She said without looking up. I didn’t want to ruin the surprise so I pressed it without saying anything. I knew if she heard my voice it would give it away! I stood next to her as she continued to type away on her phone. For a second I thought about just saying, “Hi there beautiful.” But it was our eyes that usually did the loudest speaking so I just held my breath. When my floor *dinged* three I got out and right as the doors started to close I said,
“I hope you have a good night.” She looked up just as the doors were closing and I saw that tell-tale tired smile on her face. She had had a long day and really needed sleep. At first I thought she might be ignoring me because I hadn’t said hello yesterday, but once I got to my apartment I realized that she was probably just exhausted and we were going to see each other tomorrow anyway.
*saved* 11:56pmFriday, March 3, 2017 7:47am
Dear Journal,
That brings us to today and I just realized it’s almost 8 and I have to leave for work. I should have some time when I first get in, plus I should finally get a chance to talk to Jessie. She usually leaves around 8:10. I know she’s upset with me and I really hope she gives me a chance to explain.
*saved* 7:53amFriday, March 3, 2017 9:01am
Dear Journal,
So I think we had our first fight last night. Jessie really gets upset when I watch TV too loud but usually I can tell when she wants me to turn it down. She actually called the landlord on me. I can’t believe she didn’t just come talk to me. She must really be angry about me not coming to say hello to her. Maybe I’ll be able to talk to her at some point today.
*saved* 9:17amFriday, March 3, 2017 11:16am
Dear Journal,
Jessie sent me an e-mail a few minutes ago about a problem she’s having with her computer. She definitely wants to talk. I hope she will listen to what I have to say.
*saved* 11:22amFriday, March 3, 2017 1:27pm
Dear Journal,
She didn’t even look at me! I walked into her office like I always do and there she was but she didn’t smile… she didn’t wave or say hello… she just kept talking to Tiffany her stupid receptionist about how they’re going out for drinks tonight! She totally knew I could hear her! How could she spend OUR first Friday night in our new place together with her friends?!? What is she trying to prove with this nonsense? I moved for her! I am the one who is making all of these changes for HER and she acts like she doesn’t even care! What did I do to deserve this? My boss is coming...
*saved* 1:57pm
Friday, March 3, 2017 7:47pm
Dear Journal,
She still isn’t home. I wonder how long she is planning on making my wait… Is this just some game to her??? Our love is so beautiful and she is just throwing it away!! I need to make her see that we belong together!!! I need her to understand that we were right in thinking that we were perfect together!!! Why can’t she just SEE?????????????
*saved* 8:09pmFriday, March 3, 2017 9:59pm
Dear Journal,
WHERE THE FUCK IS SHE?!?!?!? WHO THE HELL DOES SHE THINK SHE IS?????? I SWEAR IF SHE THINKS SHE CAN JUST WALK ALL OVER ME SHE IS WRONG!!!! THIS IS NOT HOW A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP WORKS!!!!!! CAN’T YOU SEE WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT DOC?????? I’M NOT THE PROBLEM!!!! SHE IS!!!!
*saved* 10:16pmFriday, March 3, 2017 11:46pm
Dear Journal,
I just heard her get home. I need to go talk to her. There has to be a way to work this out. Maybe she just needed to let off some steam with the girls… That better be the reason… I’ll tell you how our conversation goes in tomorrow’s session. Sorry I have to cut this short but I really need to just talk to her……….
*saved* 12:01am
*sent* 12:02amNEW YORK TIMES Saturday, March 4, 2017
DAIRY OF A STALKER
In the early morning hours of Saturday, March 4, 2017, Jessica Morris was found murdered in her fourth-floor apartment after a psychologist alerted police about an e-mail “diary” he had received from a patient. The man, Joe Smith, had worked in the same building as Ms. Morris as an IT specialist. After reading the e-mail sent from Mr. Smith, Dr. James Monroe called authorities immediately believing that Ms. Morris’ life may be in danger. Sadly, he was too late. Mr. Smith had a long history of mental illness and it was discovered that he had formed an irrational and unfounded relationship with Ms. Morris. Authorities believe that she had no idea she was being stalked. A BOLO has been issued for Joe Smith and any persons who have any information regarding his whereabouts are urged to contact the authorities at the number listed below.