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yea...
so after a week of solitude with only a few associations with people (school doesn't count. school is work and the small joys of friendship don't counteract the overall effect), i realized that it wasn't kirby's death that made me numb... it was me. I'm still numb. I giggle when I'm out with people, but as soon as I get back home I turn into this zombie. I'm so tired and I just want to sleep, but I can't. I've never felt like this, i'm usually rather extreme with my emotions, but right now I'm just... here... but a little on the sad side.
Not sure why... not sure of the whys for anything right now. I just don't feel like the happy-go-lucky person I was a month ago... and that frightens me. I don't want to be this person.
so after a week of solitude with only a few associations with people (school doesn't count. school is work and the small joys of friendship don't counteract the overall effect), i realized that it wasn't kirby's death that made me numb... it was me. I'm still numb. I giggle when I'm out with people, but as soon as I get back home I turn into this zombie. I'm so tired and I just want to sleep, but I can't. I've never felt like this, i'm usually rather extreme with my emotions, but right now I'm just... here... but a little on the sad side.
Not sure why... not sure of the whys for anything right now. I just don't feel like the happy-go-lucky person I was a month ago... and that frightens me. I don't want to be this person.