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anyway, that has been my day so far, doing the dishes, cleaning up, blah... getting tired of the routine. school, housework & housework, school. gets old really quick. sometimes i just wish that i could go on a sporadic vacation, which sounds a lot like running away, but that is not what they call it at this age. ever wish that you could just have the money and time to just pack up and leave for a week or two? i do and i know that is a bad thing to want, but man i just feel like i need a break from all the same damned things that i have been doing for almost a year now..... work, or school, or home or whatever... always broke and no reason for that to change anytime soon. i mean school is somewhat satisfying, but not really the thrill that i want out of life, but as it is in the rest of my experiences i'm in too far to do anything about it and so many people are counting on me to get it done. well i can say damn their expectations. everyone's i mean why the hell do i have to carry all this guilt around because i have changed my mind about what i want to do, or not do... ahh yes i know because they have supported me and it would be a waste of their money to stop. ohh i am bitter tonight. and i fucked up my nail polish... which took a while to do. ehh maybe tomorrow will be better.
anyway, that has been my day so far, doing the dishes, cleaning up, blah... getting tired of the routine. school, housework & housework, school. gets old really quick. sometimes i just wish that i could go on a sporadic vacation, which sounds a lot like running away, but that is not what they call it at this age. ever wish that you could just have the money and time to just pack up and leave for a week or two? i do and i know that is a bad thing to want, but man i just feel like i need a break from all the same damned things that i have been doing for almost a year now..... work, or school, or home or whatever... always broke and no reason for that to change anytime soon. i mean school is somewhat satisfying, but not really the thrill that i want out of life, but as it is in the rest of my experiences i'm in too far to do anything about it and so many people are counting on me to get it done. well i can say damn their expectations. everyone's i mean why the hell do i have to carry all this guilt around because i have changed my mind about what i want to do, or not do... ahh yes i know because they have supported me and it would be a waste of their money to stop. ohh i am bitter tonight. and i fucked up my nail polish... which took a while to do. ehh maybe tomorrow will be better.