Waiting for 4:03 AM.
It's the THREE YEAR anniversary of my dad's passing.
I've been going crazy all day trying to keep myself busy anyway I could.
The reason for this, was so that I couldn't think.
I was dreading for night to come. Dreading the clock turning 10:30PM... and now its almost 12AM....
and I have nothing to keep me busy except writing this post.
Tomorrow is going to be a really tough day. I'll just keep getting flashes in my head of the
exact things I had done 3 years earlier..
It'll be so much worse from my usual everyday thoughts about him.
I fucking miss him so much.
There is not one thing that I wouldn't do.. or give up.....
just to see him and hug him one last fucking time....
The only thing I have now is a loving memory..
This one's for you daddy..
April 6, 1953 - February 2/3, 2002
Until we meet again.. I'll be dreaming of you...
I love you. Goodnight <33
I've been going crazy all day trying to keep myself busy anyway I could.
The reason for this, was so that I couldn't think.
I was dreading for night to come. Dreading the clock turning 10:30PM... and now its almost 12AM....
and I have nothing to keep me busy except writing this post.
Tomorrow is going to be a really tough day. I'll just keep getting flashes in my head of the
exact things I had done 3 years earlier..
It'll be so much worse from my usual everyday thoughts about him.
I fucking miss him so much.
There is not one thing that I wouldn't do.. or give up.....
just to see him and hug him one last fucking time....
The only thing I have now is a loving memory..
This one's for you daddy..
April 6, 1953 - February 2/3, 2002
Until we meet again.. I'll be dreaming of you...
I love you. Goodnight <33