LONDON: 2/8/11
Last night was interesting.
One of my and my romantic associate's ex-friends (let's call him K) started giving my bf shit about how my bf's whipped and I'm this big horrible person and I've ruined their friendship and all that. When I went on to ask if he'd speak directly to me if he feels so strongly against me, I discovered he'd done the brave thing and blocked me on Facebook. I had been planning to be democratic. That went out the window. Let's just say this guy has a lot of weakpoints and touchy subjects that normally I'd never touch....let's also say I punctured those wounds and squirmed around in 'em for good measure in a little e-mail I sent him last night. You don't mess with my loved ones, you don't mess with me, but the LAST thing I stand for is cowardice and lack of respect. It felt so good to be cruel after playing nice for so long; to say exactly what I meant. Will he reply? Probably not. Will he read it? I have no doubt in my mind. EDIT:// He did.
I realized something--this guy and everyone he was wrapped up with were these jokers from my freshman year who one by one have screwed me over. That was three years ago. I'm in London. Why the fuck was this still a part of my life? These are severely emotionally damaged people, why was I letting their words which mean nothing hurt me?
So I made a new FB. A FB whose friend list I control. No friends just to be nice, nobody who has ANY connection to that bullshit. A fresh start. This me doesn't know any of that; this me starts in London and has control. It was tough to let go of some of the people who didn't do me any harm but who was too close to those who did--but I need to move on. I can't let go if they keep spouting gossip in my ear, keep it alive. I'm done. And people needed to get that message once and for all. I've only added people who either have no idea who these other people are or people who know to shut up about it :P
I feel....like I just popped a huge blister. It hurt a bit but it's nothing compared to the aching it caused for YEARS. Now it still is a bit sore but I breathe only fresh air.
One of my and my romantic associate's ex-friends (let's call him K) started giving my bf shit about how my bf's whipped and I'm this big horrible person and I've ruined their friendship and all that. When I went on to ask if he'd speak directly to me if he feels so strongly against me, I discovered he'd done the brave thing and blocked me on Facebook. I had been planning to be democratic. That went out the window. Let's just say this guy has a lot of weakpoints and touchy subjects that normally I'd never touch....let's also say I punctured those wounds and squirmed around in 'em for good measure in a little e-mail I sent him last night. You don't mess with my loved ones, you don't mess with me, but the LAST thing I stand for is cowardice and lack of respect. It felt so good to be cruel after playing nice for so long; to say exactly what I meant. Will he reply? Probably not. Will he read it? I have no doubt in my mind. EDIT:// He did.
I realized something--this guy and everyone he was wrapped up with were these jokers from my freshman year who one by one have screwed me over. That was three years ago. I'm in London. Why the fuck was this still a part of my life? These are severely emotionally damaged people, why was I letting their words which mean nothing hurt me?
So I made a new FB. A FB whose friend list I control. No friends just to be nice, nobody who has ANY connection to that bullshit. A fresh start. This me doesn't know any of that; this me starts in London and has control. It was tough to let go of some of the people who didn't do me any harm but who was too close to those who did--but I need to move on. I can't let go if they keep spouting gossip in my ear, keep it alive. I'm done. And people needed to get that message once and for all. I've only added people who either have no idea who these other people are or people who know to shut up about it :P
I feel....like I just popped a huge blister. It hurt a bit but it's nothing compared to the aching it caused for YEARS. Now it still is a bit sore but I breathe only fresh air.