Memes time

[lokifan]

A real low: feeling unhappy and inadequate (and BEING inadequate) and not wanting to do the drabble meme because I will probably still feel/be unable to write and then I will feel MORE unhappy and inadequate

Comments

[klashfor]

Oh Lokifan :(

Do you mean getting a job back here, or a different job in Vietnam?

To aid you, I demand COCK (three reasons you are awesome-pah! there are countless reasons!)

I'm not doing too great either right now. I am eating ALL THE THINGS. Emotional eating for the motherfucking lose.

How the hell are you inadequate? You graduated, dealt with depression, dealt with your family dicking you around, dealt with getting more qualifications, dickish housemates, flying to the OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD all the time while being involved in what you love, reating and consuming art and words and I am so proud.

[miss_morland]

Seconding this last paragraph so hard. <3

As for the meme... Hell?

[lokifan]

D'AWW.

Something I currently do that would drive one of your parents nuts - aside from 'consider leaving my job with no new one lined up just so I can move back to London'? Well, I think my occasional drug-taking would maybe drive my dad nuts - probably not my mum, she did weed herself and I don't do class A any more. So I nominate "have kinky and somewhat sexy things going on when a certain group of friends gets drunk".

[lokifan]

Back there! I actually enjoy the job I have, even if I am not great at it. (I think I could be good, but I do not want to spend the time here that would take.) I just... I have friends here, people I like, but no one I super-click with like I have loads of at home. I mean, even on the CELTA course I made good friends. I don't think expat living, especially in a hot city where I can't walk anywhere and my community is made tiny by language barriers, suits me. There's lots of drinking and sitting and talking about stuff I don't care about. Also people who make prison rape jokes and talk about hypocrisy is a woman thing and tell me I want to be offended and don't know what "queer" means (in the LGBT-etc sense). Just. Meh.

<3333333 YOU ARE SUPER LOVELY. And I can't tell you how much I needed to hear that :) My mum said this thing about how this job is really all I've done, that has been eating at me a bit. Except she doesn't know me very well and we don't value that same things. Which I have a tendency to forget without Awesome People

[ashiiblack]

That's HYSTERICAL!!! I never thought about "shit" being used to describe cool things but it's totally true!

Last year I had to explain to my fifth graders why they couldn't call each other "bloody wankers." It was so awkward.

[lokifan]

Haha, right? And LOL, your fifth graders! Yeah, I had to explain to the same class that "bloody" is a swearword, if a mild one, and I felt REALLY WEIRD looking at the fresh young faces and saying "bloody" over and over again!

[capitu]

Well. I never thought I'd see the day when 'shit' = cool.

****hugs****

[lokifan]

Heh. Explaining how 'the shit = awesome' but 'shit = terrible' gave me one of my many English Is Ridiculous, I Apologise moments. I had one of those moments explaining about a random French word the other week - "it's English but it comes from French so we say it the French way not the English way" got me fourteen totally justified What Even Is This faces from Vietnamese nine-year-olds.

[son_of_darkness]

How the fuck are you meant to have a 'job lined up' when you are half way across the world? The most you can do from there is send in CVs via email. You can't attend interviews until you get back to the UK, and if you have to give a month's notice, sending in CVs now is going to do you very little good if you get an email back saying "could you come in for an interview next week?"

Your mother is a fucking moron. I'm sorry, but she is. You need to be in the country before you can realistically start applying for jobs here. Jesus Christ!

[hot_jupiters]

This.

Your mother IS a fucking moron. I'm really sorry, hon. That's just crazy talk -- she's living in a completely different era. What the actual fuck, she's so clueless about how these things work nowadays.

[lokifan]

<3

Haha, thanks. I mean, TEFL companies will do Skype interviews, sometimes? Except not really if they're in the UK. Yeah, idk.

[lokifan]

You are completely right <3 Thank you for your righteous indignation!

Also the way your OT4 descends all at once to assure me that I am right and my mother is wrong. (I can feel Sallie in the background). It simultaneously makes me giggle and feel loved.

[creatore_magico]

*cuddles* Mum's are not always right. Do what you know is best for you. Finding a job when you can't go for an interview is near impossible anyway, you might go right into something you hate or that is totally not right for you because you were unable to check it out first.

You take care of you. Love you xxx

[lokifan]

*lols* I do enjoy how you all descend in a cloud of comments. And yes, this is very true. Companies like ILA do Skype interviews because they hire people who are almost always abroad then, which I think has maybe given her a skewed idea? Idk.

Love you too bb <3 And yeah. If nothing else, I need to give notice because staying here for the length of time it would take to fix the reference I'lll get would require waaay too long recovering back home from the increased Spiral of Bad.

[creatore_magico]

YES! The OT4 has yo BACK you know?! Skype interviews are stressful and just like a real interview. You need time to prepare and the right frame of mind to go to one. It's an idea in theory but likely wont work out well in practice, sort of like... Oh I don't know, bedroom tax or something? XD

You are still my hero and I'm still ultra ultra proud of you.

[lokifan]

AWW. And yeah, quite. Like, I am going to apply and stuff. But it is also important to be not-depressed so I can go out and DO THE THINGS. (Also. It is hilarious and clever and SO ADORABLE that you compared this to the bedroom tax, ahahaha.)

RIGHT BACK ATCHA.