i'll be doing my best and i'll see you soon

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[It's been a long while since Mello fell asleep, and Matt's just laid there, unable to sleep; he just keeps going over what he remembers of his death in his mind, over and over and over, analyzing the entire thing - how it happened, how the prick could've gotten the drop on him. That's all that really bothers him, really, is that he was so easily

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[He hears Matt's voice, but isn't awake enough to parse the words; he stirs sleepily for a moment before opening his eyes. Thank god, Matt's still here. Mello's nightmares haven't been terrible in some time, but his sleep's been more than unsettled. Right now, though, the vague memory of searching empty streets, the roar of flames crackling at the edge of his hearing, fades away as he lifts his head.]

Hey.

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Hey.

[He's slightly stunned that Mello's waking up so suddenly like this; Matt hopes he didn't wake him up, and that his lover didn't hear what he'd just said. That's not a conversation he wants to have right now.]

You okay?

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I am now. [He kisses the corner of Matt's mouth.]

Did you sleep?

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Yeah. [A lie, of course, but like he's gonna let Mello even have the chance to feel pathetic.]

How was your sleep? D'you need more?

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No, I'm good. [He's so used to going without sleep that a full night's rest is a shocking novelty. He props his head up on his elbow and looks down at Matt.]

You still look tired.

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A bit, but I'm not bad off. [He slides down into the bed a little, blinking lazily up at Mello and covering himself up. This feels so much nicer than he has in so long.]

Good dreams? [He hopes.]

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I don't remember them.

[He stretches, accidentally on purpose pressing closer to Matt.]

How about breakfast in bed?

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[Matt's breath catches in his throat at that; it's been so long...

But he just smiles, glancing at the door as he flushes.]

It sounds good. Whaddaya want? I can actually cook pretty well now, heh.

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I was going to cook it, dork.

[He pulls Matt closer with an arm around his waist, and leans in to whisper in his ear.] Unless you want to skip right to dessert.

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[Matt can't help it; flushing just seems to be second-nature, as usual. He closes his eyes, shivering a little and leaning closer to Mello, all completely unconscious. His head's gone nicely blank, and he can't work up an answer at the moment.]

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[It shouldn't surprise Mello by now, but still does, how quickly his desire flares. He drags his mouth down to Matt's jaw, nips at it before moving down to his neck.]

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[Gasping loudly, Matt presses his body flush against Mello's, whining a little for more as his hands reach up, his fingers twisting in the blond's hair and pulling his face closer.]

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[Mello groans at feeling Matt hard against him, and tips his head back up and captures his mouth roughly, sliding his hand up his back to dig his nails into the nape of his neck.]

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[The kiss and the sharp, slight pain to the back of his neck make Matt basically melt against Mello, turning a little so his body faces his lover's; he bucks his hips a little, falling headfirst into the kiss desperately.]

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[Mello arches closer still, nudging Matt's legs apart with his knee, nipping at his mouth until he's panting and has to pull back to catch his breath.]

Fuck, I want you.

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Ah-

[Breathing hard, his spreads himself wide open for Mello, rubbing his fingers gently along the left side of Mello's jaw, grinding upward against his lover at the same time.] Oh God, I want you too.