Motivation...
I've lost it... i don't know where it has gone, and I would really like it back... But I don't know how to do that.... But my motivation is gone.
Its not about my History classes either. Those are fine. German... FUCKING German is killing me slowly but surely. I really want to learn the language, but i DESPISE the class... ugh.
I feel like something is wrong inside of me. I supressed it for a while, but I don't know if it is working anymore... I'm not depressed, i'm not angry, i'm not being anti-social, but something isn't right. Back in the day i would take this out on my iPod and a 2.8 mile path i had laced out at my moms. My back won't let that happen, but an Eliptical will... I need to start running on one of those regularly.
My plan to jump right into my masters program is slipping through my fingers, but I like the plan that is replacing it. When I get my degree i'm going to teach high school. This will give me the break I need from my own academia and still keep up on History. After some time there, hopefully I can talk the county into paying for my Masters, and cotinue from there. I really think if I don't get a break, i'll lose the enjoyment I have for History, and that would be no good.
Just a lot of random crap going on, and running through my head. I dunno, maybe i'll update a little more in detail later.
Its not about my History classes either. Those are fine. German... FUCKING German is killing me slowly but surely. I really want to learn the language, but i DESPISE the class... ugh.
I feel like something is wrong inside of me. I supressed it for a while, but I don't know if it is working anymore... I'm not depressed, i'm not angry, i'm not being anti-social, but something isn't right. Back in the day i would take this out on my iPod and a 2.8 mile path i had laced out at my moms. My back won't let that happen, but an Eliptical will... I need to start running on one of those regularly.
My plan to jump right into my masters program is slipping through my fingers, but I like the plan that is replacing it. When I get my degree i'm going to teach high school. This will give me the break I need from my own academia and still keep up on History. After some time there, hopefully I can talk the county into paying for my Masters, and cotinue from there. I really think if I don't get a break, i'll lose the enjoyment I have for History, and that would be no good.
Just a lot of random crap going on, and running through my head. I dunno, maybe i'll update a little more in detail later.