This game is so boldly played
x-post from (mlle.tumblr.com) instead of a redirect, just, cos' (i heart you LJ)
edrie snapped this of me last night. i make really creepy maudlin oh woe! poet faces when i play instruments, apparently. emo poetess, getting nude for you, emotionally! i don't know, it is kind of a weird vulnerable candid i'm sharing, because is it trite to say this is kind of how i feel right now inside? i'm live and in the action and doing what i love, everything is going well, but i'm kind of disassociated from it. as someone who has duelled with depression i recognize this as true change about to take place, and my little ego is throwing a regressive tantrum. i'm not going to let it win, everything is really good for me right now. i honestly have no experience with believing in a full sunny side up-egg glowing horizon of hope, and there is a lot of reason to (artistic vom-validation/encouragement?!) right now for my writing, performing, music, art, publishing, monkeying...i could say this is the most hope-ful happy day of my life wrt my arts. i've been invited to have my poetry in a publication (more on that lats). i have finished all the hard work in my grad program, and i'll have my mistress of fine arts degree come january. wot! &i am going on tour with walter sickert & the army of broken toys avec Jaggery in december. we're taking my toymobile/2010 forester, it will fulfill that which it was bought for right after it gets its first oil change, awww. (more tour-ness as we hammer out details & build a steamcrunk automaton bunny?)
at one of my wee jobs to-day i took breaks reading some amazing blogging which parallels a lot of what's on my mind... and i invite you to read them! i don't know how to preface the first, save to say, my mentor, Cate Marvin is a co-Marylander & my punk rock role model of the poetry world. she has started a women's lit. conference and organization, WILLA: Women in letters and literary arts. this interview/blog she & her co-founder wrote covers so many important topics, and reads like an amazing piece of impassioned cultural commentary meets awesome women's nonfiction. i sheddup.
“Your Silence Will Not Protect You”: A Conversation Between WILLA Co-Founders and Co-Directors Erin Belieu and Cate Marvin
Truly Wunderbar: Inside Newcastle's playful new arts festival
reading this reminded me why i do what i do, and how far you can go as a performance artist. &that is to say very very very ;)
>> False Sounds
my bandmate, the musykchyk Rachel Jayson started a new blog &i love every entry so far. she is beautiful, smart, talented and a lot of fun. add to that clever hott blogger. dear rachel, i relate (&i know i'm not the only one) when you say sometimes you feel like you "snuck" into the art rock world, and may be found out and kicked out. i'm convinced this is all of our elementary school selves's constant terror/razor's edge of social cliques BS that somehow always rears its head! anyway, it's stuff & nonsense & stuffed animal stuffing! you will be kept close and tight because we're an art faggy steamcrunk family, and i will try to believe i belong here if you will, too. oh man is this a touchy hippy abusing tumblr-like-a-regular-blog tumble from me...
off to see mehran & rob "roadsteamer" potylo &co. at the middle east soon. here's to cats in your laps, holding you down so you don't float away. oh man, it's one of those utterly strange headspace days. xo
p.s. a p.s. just for you LJ-ers. this post brought in part to you by Rachel's & emlette's writings. thank you ladies for the echo chamber of lady blogging'couragement.
edrie snapped this of me last night. i make really creepy maudlin oh woe! poet faces when i play instruments, apparently. emo poetess, getting nude for you, emotionally! i don't know, it is kind of a weird vulnerable candid i'm sharing, because is it trite to say this is kind of how i feel right now inside? i'm live and in the action and doing what i love, everything is going well, but i'm kind of disassociated from it. as someone who has duelled with depression i recognize this as true change about to take place, and my little ego is throwing a regressive tantrum. i'm not going to let it win, everything is really good for me right now. i honestly have no experience with believing in a full sunny side up-egg glowing horizon of hope, and there is a lot of reason to (artistic vom-validation/encouragement?!) right now for my writing, performing, music, art, publishing, monkeying...i could say this is the most hope-ful happy day of my life wrt my arts. i've been invited to have my poetry in a publication (more on that lats). i have finished all the hard work in my grad program, and i'll have my mistress of fine arts degree come january. wot! &i am going on tour with walter sickert & the army of broken toys avec Jaggery in december. we're taking my toymobile/2010 forester, it will fulfill that which it was bought for right after it gets its first oil change, awww. (more tour-ness as we hammer out details & build a steamcrunk automaton bunny?)
at one of my wee jobs to-day i took breaks reading some amazing blogging which parallels a lot of what's on my mind... and i invite you to read them! i don't know how to preface the first, save to say, my mentor, Cate Marvin is a co-Marylander & my punk rock role model of the poetry world. she has started a women's lit. conference and organization, WILLA: Women in letters and literary arts. this interview/blog she & her co-founder wrote covers so many important topics, and reads like an amazing piece of impassioned cultural commentary meets awesome women's nonfiction. i sheddup.
“Your Silence Will Not Protect You”: A Conversation Between WILLA Co-Founders and Co-Directors Erin Belieu and Cate Marvin
Truly Wunderbar: Inside Newcastle's playful new arts festival
reading this reminded me why i do what i do, and how far you can go as a performance artist. &that is to say very very very ;)
>> False Sounds
my bandmate, the musykchyk Rachel Jayson started a new blog &i love every entry so far. she is beautiful, smart, talented and a lot of fun. add to that clever hott blogger. dear rachel, i relate (&i know i'm not the only one) when you say sometimes you feel like you "snuck" into the art rock world, and may be found out and kicked out. i'm convinced this is all of our elementary school selves's constant terror/razor's edge of social cliques BS that somehow always rears its head! anyway, it's stuff & nonsense & stuffed animal stuffing! you will be kept close and tight because we're an art faggy steamcrunk family, and i will try to believe i belong here if you will, too. oh man is this a touchy hippy abusing tumblr-like-a-regular-blog tumble from me...
off to see mehran & rob "roadsteamer" potylo &co. at the middle east soon. here's to cats in your laps, holding you down so you don't float away. oh man, it's one of those utterly strange headspace days. xo
p.s. a p.s. just for you LJ-ers. this post brought in part to you by Rachel's & emlette's writings. thank you ladies for the echo chamber of lady blogging'couragement.