Feeling good, 'cause it's hot hot hot!
Well, not feeling good about the heat but otherwise I'm feeling pretty good! I should be freaking out more about some things: where to live come August, for one. Grad school for another. But overall I'm pretty good, and I've been in a good mood more or else all week!
Work: My boss was out two weeks ago all week, but I managed to have a couple uber productive days so I was pretty well caught up on most of my overdue stuff when she came back last week. Of course she gave me a TON more to do, so now I'm slightly behind again... but only slightly. I think I've kept up rather well!
Relationship: Things with Eva are going really well :-) Last weekend I brought her to Ocala to meet my parents; she passes muster :) Granted, some of that might be because she isn't 17, hahaha. My mom actually commented to me "Isn't it nice to be dating an adult?" But she also said "Eva is really nice and polite; she seems like a really good girl for you!" so it's not all about the age thing. I didn't let them interrogate her much... not that they would have. I think by this point my parents are kinda like "Eh, Paul knows enough to know what he's doing. Usually." I don't expect that same reaction next weekend, when I go to meet Eva's family in Jacksonville :-P She's already said "Prepare to my interrogated by my dad about religion." I've made up my mind to tell the truth: I consider myself a Christian, but I have yet to find a sect that agrees with my views, because most seem to focus more on hellfire, damnation, sin, and guilt than on love, acceptance, and joy. I think religion should be a celebration of the joy of life while accepting that bad things happen, and that God loves you no matter what." It's not a popular view, and I doubt conservatives like her parents will take to it, but I also don't think they can do much about it, haha. And I figure that it's better than lying and pretending I'm Jeremy.
My feeling toward Eva are also starting to blossom a bit. I had a nightmare the other night where I dreamed Eva hooked up with another guy. I woke up really upset. Like, I was surprised how upset I was! She also went home this Friday, and I've been missing her! It sounds weird that I'm sounding shocked here, but I'm really pleasantly surprised I can feel jealous and lonely... bad feelings though they may be, they still show how much I'm thinking about her recently :)
At the same time I'm KINDA having issues with Supriya. I texted her Friday, she texted back, I texted again... and nothing. I don't know why I felt obligated to having texts back. Or why I'm annoyed that if I don't contact her I don't hear from her... but I am. I talked to Alf about it, and he said there will probably always be some feeling there. I agree... she's kinda-dating three guys right now, and I'll admit I feel jealous. And yet I try to look at it impartially and I think to myself "Dude, she's a hot mess. She drinks too much, she's playing multiple guys, she's made out with at least a dozen since you and dirty danced with probably twice that number. Stay AWAY (or stay near as a friend only!)." It's a big help that I'm feeling more and more toward Eva, but even that little pull toward her is a pain. On the plus side, her graduation was tonight and that a good time; all the faculty on the stage I knew from work :-D
Health: I restarted the P90X last week, and did it 6 days straight. Didn't do the optional "Stretch X" today, but I did walk three miles on the treadmill this morning, so I think it balances out. I've also been limiting what I eat; this week I've stayed between 1500 and 2000 calories a day. I'd like to stay UNDER 1500, but it's almost impossible to do with P90X; I drink two protein shakes a day, around 250 calories each, so that's 500 calories BEFORE meals. But soup (200-300 calories) and pizza sandwiches (about 350 for two) help a ton. I snack on carrots, apples, and popcorn (100 calorie bags). I need to go food shopping again... ugh, guess that's tomorrow night after my workout! I also have not had an alcoholic drink of ANYTHING in the past two weeks... and that feels SO good. Alcohol I've found tires you out, makes you gain weight, and takes away SO much time. Nights fly by while drunk; sober I feel like I have a good amount of time each evening. So much better not to drink until Memorial Day! Although there's a graduation party next weekend, so we'll see...
Are there results yet? Hard to say. I was asked today if I lost weight by Supriya... I don't think I have. I'm guessing I am still around 180 pounds, but my stomach does seem a little smaller. I'm using that as my estimate for calories I burn at rest and for the treadmill... maybe I should scale back to 175... all I know is that 4 more weeks of this and I should be looking a lot better for Delaware!
Plans: Memorial day weekend I head back to Delaware for the first time in two years! I'll head up the week before with my parents, go to my sister's graduation, then hang out with Alf, Jeremy, and Carolynn (who is like 10 weeks pregnant!) the rest of the weekend. SO EXCITED! Ticket back was only about $100 too, so not that pricey! I cannot wait... which is good, as it's less than a month away :-)
Ok, bed time now; only 10:30, but best to get some sleep. I have more on my mind, but I'll pass on that for now. Mostly questions about how much jealousy is ok over a former flame... does everyone always feel some jealousy about old hookups? I seem to. It's not pleasant. Ho hum. Ciao!
~Paul
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
Work: My boss was out two weeks ago all week, but I managed to have a couple uber productive days so I was pretty well caught up on most of my overdue stuff when she came back last week. Of course she gave me a TON more to do, so now I'm slightly behind again... but only slightly. I think I've kept up rather well!
Relationship: Things with Eva are going really well :-) Last weekend I brought her to Ocala to meet my parents; she passes muster :) Granted, some of that might be because she isn't 17, hahaha. My mom actually commented to me "Isn't it nice to be dating an adult?" But she also said "Eva is really nice and polite; she seems like a really good girl for you!" so it's not all about the age thing. I didn't let them interrogate her much... not that they would have. I think by this point my parents are kinda like "Eh, Paul knows enough to know what he's doing. Usually." I don't expect that same reaction next weekend, when I go to meet Eva's family in Jacksonville :-P She's already said "Prepare to my interrogated by my dad about religion." I've made up my mind to tell the truth: I consider myself a Christian, but I have yet to find a sect that agrees with my views, because most seem to focus more on hellfire, damnation, sin, and guilt than on love, acceptance, and joy. I think religion should be a celebration of the joy of life while accepting that bad things happen, and that God loves you no matter what." It's not a popular view, and I doubt conservatives like her parents will take to it, but I also don't think they can do much about it, haha. And I figure that it's better than lying and pretending I'm Jeremy.
My feeling toward Eva are also starting to blossom a bit. I had a nightmare the other night where I dreamed Eva hooked up with another guy. I woke up really upset. Like, I was surprised how upset I was! She also went home this Friday, and I've been missing her! It sounds weird that I'm sounding shocked here, but I'm really pleasantly surprised I can feel jealous and lonely... bad feelings though they may be, they still show how much I'm thinking about her recently :)
At the same time I'm KINDA having issues with Supriya. I texted her Friday, she texted back, I texted again... and nothing. I don't know why I felt obligated to having texts back. Or why I'm annoyed that if I don't contact her I don't hear from her... but I am. I talked to Alf about it, and he said there will probably always be some feeling there. I agree... she's kinda-dating three guys right now, and I'll admit I feel jealous. And yet I try to look at it impartially and I think to myself "Dude, she's a hot mess. She drinks too much, she's playing multiple guys, she's made out with at least a dozen since you and dirty danced with probably twice that number. Stay AWAY (or stay near as a friend only!)." It's a big help that I'm feeling more and more toward Eva, but even that little pull toward her is a pain. On the plus side, her graduation was tonight and that a good time; all the faculty on the stage I knew from work :-D
Health: I restarted the P90X last week, and did it 6 days straight. Didn't do the optional "Stretch X" today, but I did walk three miles on the treadmill this morning, so I think it balances out. I've also been limiting what I eat; this week I've stayed between 1500 and 2000 calories a day. I'd like to stay UNDER 1500, but it's almost impossible to do with P90X; I drink two protein shakes a day, around 250 calories each, so that's 500 calories BEFORE meals. But soup (200-300 calories) and pizza sandwiches (about 350 for two) help a ton. I snack on carrots, apples, and popcorn (100 calorie bags). I need to go food shopping again... ugh, guess that's tomorrow night after my workout! I also have not had an alcoholic drink of ANYTHING in the past two weeks... and that feels SO good. Alcohol I've found tires you out, makes you gain weight, and takes away SO much time. Nights fly by while drunk; sober I feel like I have a good amount of time each evening. So much better not to drink until Memorial Day! Although there's a graduation party next weekend, so we'll see...
Are there results yet? Hard to say. I was asked today if I lost weight by Supriya... I don't think I have. I'm guessing I am still around 180 pounds, but my stomach does seem a little smaller. I'm using that as my estimate for calories I burn at rest and for the treadmill... maybe I should scale back to 175... all I know is that 4 more weeks of this and I should be looking a lot better for Delaware!
Plans: Memorial day weekend I head back to Delaware for the first time in two years! I'll head up the week before with my parents, go to my sister's graduation, then hang out with Alf, Jeremy, and Carolynn (who is like 10 weeks pregnant!) the rest of the weekend. SO EXCITED! Ticket back was only about $100 too, so not that pricey! I cannot wait... which is good, as it's less than a month away :-)
Ok, bed time now; only 10:30, but best to get some sleep. I have more on my mind, but I'll pass on that for now. Mostly questions about how much jealousy is ok over a former flame... does everyone always feel some jealousy about old hookups? I seem to. It's not pleasant. Ho hum. Ciao!
~Paul
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net