once a prick...
my esteem for my parents has drastically declined since the 4th and seems to be dwindling by the day. there's far to much history and boring shit to say so i'll make it short.
my mother is absolutely bat shit crazy. she cries and screams and freaks out for no reason at all. i used to think it was menopause. but that has come and gone and she seems to be getting worse. the terrible thing is she has some kind of weird jealousy thing with my sister so when they fight i'm smack in the middle every time. not that my mom is entirely to blame every time either. my sister does some fucked up shit too. eh...
my father is a whole other story. he married a gold-digger who made sure to cut me and my sister off from his life soon as you can say joint account. so he goes off all mid-life-crisis like and starts a brand new family with my stepmom. who is cool i guess but i've always been acutely aware that my dad is her meal ticket. even when i was young. so now i get to watch my brother enjoy every perk in life that my sister and i never had. and what's so so so fucking bad about it is he seems to gloat in watching us feel... what? jealous. that's not right. pissed off is more like it. they go and buy him a brand new car today. you know, just for the shit of it. every time i walk past him he's like - are you jealous? are you jealous? are you jealous? i just say no. i just want peace. what i really want to say is - no motherfucker i'm not jealous. i fucking despise you. always have. coming back here in a way makes me feel better because i know i'm not just being childish about it. it really happened. fuck you for prepaying his college. fuck you for all this shit you do for him that you never did for us! in fact, you haven't done one thing beneficial to my life since 5th grade. or wait... ever? 'but i payed child support.' child support schmild support. fuck you and your momma too bitch. that's none of my concern. i can't wait to get the fuck outa here so we can go back to not knowing each other. don't even think of asking for a visit.
on the other hand. i actually care about my mom. this is so lame.
my mother is absolutely bat shit crazy. she cries and screams and freaks out for no reason at all. i used to think it was menopause. but that has come and gone and she seems to be getting worse. the terrible thing is she has some kind of weird jealousy thing with my sister so when they fight i'm smack in the middle every time. not that my mom is entirely to blame every time either. my sister does some fucked up shit too. eh...
my father is a whole other story. he married a gold-digger who made sure to cut me and my sister off from his life soon as you can say joint account. so he goes off all mid-life-crisis like and starts a brand new family with my stepmom. who is cool i guess but i've always been acutely aware that my dad is her meal ticket. even when i was young. so now i get to watch my brother enjoy every perk in life that my sister and i never had. and what's so so so fucking bad about it is he seems to gloat in watching us feel... what? jealous. that's not right. pissed off is more like it. they go and buy him a brand new car today. you know, just for the shit of it. every time i walk past him he's like - are you jealous? are you jealous? are you jealous? i just say no. i just want peace. what i really want to say is - no motherfucker i'm not jealous. i fucking despise you. always have. coming back here in a way makes me feel better because i know i'm not just being childish about it. it really happened. fuck you for prepaying his college. fuck you for all this shit you do for him that you never did for us! in fact, you haven't done one thing beneficial to my life since 5th grade. or wait... ever? 'but i payed child support.' child support schmild support. fuck you and your momma too bitch. that's none of my concern. i can't wait to get the fuck outa here so we can go back to not knowing each other. don't even think of asking for a visit.
on the other hand. i actually care about my mom. this is so lame.