My Smile is Fake but my tears r real. . . .
Omgosh! i havent updated in the longest time....and so many things have happened. I still am crying myself to sleep! Which sucks the biggest ass in the world. Its like the only way i can get to sleep these days..and thats when my emotions really do come out when nobody is watching. Well me and megan really dont talk anymore..its like she doesnt care about me anymore its all about chris... Like i asked her nicely please dont do what you do in front of me..it kills me! SHE SAID SHE WOULDNT DO IT ANYMORE..but i guess shes good at lieing..and of course me being the one to always get hurt i falled for it, and she did it but we also had a fight bc i herd she was making out w him so i asked her and she said yes and i just freaked it wasnt pretty i ended up sayin so what ur make out buddies? and i guess everythig is horrible! Atleast chris still talks 2 me ! 7more days till school i cant wait! then i dont have to worry about anyone anymore! thank god. I just need a new everything! Re-Model my life..it wud help so much.
My grandma is still doing horribly..i feel so sorry for her when i look at her i just want 2 cry but then i have 2 be strong for her and my other family. I feel like a horrible grandma. Like i remember when she was fine and my dad was like lets go visit your grandma and i would be like no her house is boring! God i can kick myself in the ass for every single time i said that. But she knows i love her and i visit her at the hospital. I hope all this goes away..she doesnt deserve this shit! She hasnt done anything wrong in her life besides care for people and try 2 help out. Yeah she has never worked a day in her life but it was hard for her moving from cuba with 3 kids and then having another one. She got a divorce. Her life was hard but shes so kind. Why does everything have 2 happen to the people that dont do anything bad?! its not fair. All this weight on my shoulders! All this stress! All these tears! i want it 2 end..ALL OF IT! I wish my tears wud go away and life would be easier. But life isnt fair and i get the crappy end of the deal.
Torn in pieces...Christy
My grandma is still doing horribly..i feel so sorry for her when i look at her i just want 2 cry but then i have 2 be strong for her and my other family. I feel like a horrible grandma. Like i remember when she was fine and my dad was like lets go visit your grandma and i would be like no her house is boring! God i can kick myself in the ass for every single time i said that. But she knows i love her and i visit her at the hospital. I hope all this goes away..she doesnt deserve this shit! She hasnt done anything wrong in her life besides care for people and try 2 help out. Yeah she has never worked a day in her life but it was hard for her moving from cuba with 3 kids and then having another one. She got a divorce. Her life was hard but shes so kind. Why does everything have 2 happen to the people that dont do anything bad?! its not fair. All this weight on my shoulders! All this stress! All these tears! i want it 2 end..ALL OF IT! I wish my tears wud go away and life would be easier. But life isnt fair and i get the crappy end of the deal.
Torn in pieces...Christy