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ugh why does it seem when everything is just perfect and you're finally happy of the person youve become and life in general, everything goes wrong? the last week has been hell, my parents wont stop fighting, and dont even ask about me and fabian. i really dont understand what his problem is. and just everything seems to be upsetting me, i cant count how many times ive cried this past week. maybe its the fact that im still not fully over my grandma's death, or what but its annoying. im trying soo hard to be strong and hide this, but it doesnt seem to be working. for those who know of my problem in the past, ive had a relapse, and im just straight up disgusted with myself but its really been the only way ive been able to cope with everything.
the thing with fabian is really the thing thats been hurting the most, and its not because hes my boyfriend and aww hes breaking my heart blahblahblah its more like sudden and his attitude changes for no reason as all, it goes from caring to not caring at all from nicest guy ive ever known to complete asshole. and its like "what am i doing wrong?" or like "oh its probably my fault hes acting this way."
ugh and my mom keeps telling me to get over him and "theres other fish in the sea" but i don't want any "other fish in the sea" i want him. ♥
whatever ill just have to deal with this
the thing with fabian is really the thing thats been hurting the most, and its not because hes my boyfriend and aww hes breaking my heart blahblahblah its more like sudden and his attitude changes for no reason as all, it goes from caring to not caring at all from nicest guy ive ever known to complete asshole. and its like "what am i doing wrong?" or like "oh its probably my fault hes acting this way."
ugh and my mom keeps telling me to get over him and "theres other fish in the sea" but i don't want any "other fish in the sea" i want him. ♥
whatever ill just have to deal with this