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wow this is really weird, i just found out my grandma died, not Mimi, my real father's mother, i was never close to her but for some reason i just broke down and cried. the wake and funeral are gonna be hard as anything, cause i haven't seen my real father since i was like 5 and my grandma was saying that hes been wanting to see me, but i kept telling my grandma no, now i feel really bad cause its really the only serious thing she asked of me. i dunno, if you knew him you'd feel the same way. so i apologize in advance, cause i prob won't be myself for awhile cause i have this on my mind. all i know is im praying for a snow day cause im really not up for school tomorrow.

wow thats really selfish of me, to have the relationship with my father change my mind about going to my grandma's wake and funeral, i dunno, i just need strength to get through this.

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