i forgot that i think too much and too negatively and have to just deal and i forgot how good it is and i forgot to listen to dntel. and i also forgot that i'm an asshole too. and that i suck at life too. and that no one can be perfect in this mess. and that everything is becoming and changing and that we do the best we can and that you have to change your point of vview if what you see isn't pleasing and that attitude changes so much and that he is mine and i am his and thats what matters now. i forgot to remember i guess.